Life Without My Father

My mother left my father when I was 13 months because he was an alcoholic and cheated on her. He made no attempts to come see me or talk to me on the phone. When I turned 16 I finally started searching for my father, when I finally found him we talked and we met for the first time when I was 21. He was wonderful but he tried to make up for lost times and I told him he can't do that because that time is gone! When I went and seen him at his house his girlfriend/ex wife didn't really like me because I took all his attention. We stayed in contact for about 1yr until his girl decided that I was in the way and so she decided to cause drama and now he doesn't have anything to do with me. I have a half brother too that not doesn't like me because of his mother which is my fathers gf. I really want my father in my life but I can't stand his gf and she don't like me so that causes problems. I have a wonderful dad but its not the same, I feel an emptiness and I don't know what to do.
sadden76 sadden76
31-35, F
1 Response Jan 30, 2013

I hear your sadness on being so close to returning him to your life, and losing him again.

Actually, as a Father, it is his responsibility to you to make himself available in a way that works for his family. That said, if he does right by you *and* his GF and child, it might not be enough to fill the void of his prolonged absence.

All you can do is hope for his heart to stiffen his backbone a bit more.

You can communicate with him discreetly, to let him know you care and miss him.
It is up to his heart and mind to decide to do something about it.