Dumped And AloneI am alone with a son of 21 who is disabled. For the past month i have had a mystery illness made up of weird symptoms - a stiff jaw (put it down to many painful and unnecessary dental injections), facial paralysis, extreme giddiness and feeling as if i am about to pass out, terrible heart palpitations, awful headaches and trouble eating, swallowing and speaking, plus mental fog, fear of going anywhere in case i faint, and all my confidence is gone, plus i have the awful worry of being alone as a single parent, and feeling ill with nobody here to help me.
I have a few good friends who do what they can but i feel as if i am testing their patience, yet i have always been there for them. My oldest and closest friend of 27 years has inexplicably dumped me, when i dared ring from hospital, stranded there with my son, late at night, she shouted at me and repeatedly put the phone down on me and now is cold and distant. A week later i have had a cold text from her not even acknowledging what she did or apologising.It has really upset me. Luckily my lovely neighbour got a cab and came and rescued us and would not take payment, bless her, even though she is also unwell.
My mum died some months ago and my two sisters are cruel and uncaring, contacting me only to say nasty things and criticising my parenting abililites. I have had a heart test and am waiting for the result of that, it will take some time. I just do not know where to turn for help. My son's care manager is useless. I am awaiting bereavement counselling but need to get my health sorted out.
The doctors at my surgery are getting impatient, i keep going there asking for help but they tell me to go home and stop worrying, take a paracetamol, calm down, stop panicking. I have always kept strong and busy and have helped everyone i have been able to. Everyone is getting fed up, telling me to think positive, snap out of it, etc. apart from two gentle friends.
I worry terribly about my poor son who has heart problems and epilepsy. I keep trying to keep calm, do what i can, look after my son, but it is so hard and every day is a nightmare. I just want to feel well again and enjoy life, go out and about as before but don't know what has happened to me. Please help, i feel so terribly scared and alone. Thank you.