I Got Flowers Today

 

I Got Flowers Today

It wasn't my birthday or any other special day. We had our first argument last night, and he said a lot of cruel things that really hurt me. I know that he is sorry and didn't mean the things he said. Because he sent me flowers today.

I got flowers today.
It wasn't our anniversary or any other special day. Last night he threw me into the wall and started to choke me. It seemed like a nightmare. I couldn't
believe it was real. I woke up this morning sore and bruised all over. I know he must be sorry because he sent me flowers today.
I got flowers today
and it wasn't Mother's day or any other special day. Last night he beat me up again. It was much worse than
all the other times. If I leave him, what will I do? How will I take care of my daughter? What about money?  I'm afraid of him, yet scared to leave. But I know he must be sorry. Because he sent me flowers today.
(The above was My life in 1985 to 1988.  My child was born and when she was 5 months old and I looked around and I knew that if I did not get out of here, I would no longer be here.)
I got flowers today.
Today was a very special day.
It was the day of my funeral. Last night he finally
killed me. He beat me to death. If only I had gathered
enough courage and strength to leave him. I would not of gotten flowers

 

Livinginpeace Livinginpeace
41-45, F
2 Responses Jun 27, 2008

I got the strength to leave, I'm still sad, even though my ex gave me permanent <br />
Damage when he threw me against a kitchen bench 18 months ago. In the last month<br />
The abuse was every week, I left with my children after he punched my son in the back of the head<br />
We had been together almost 3 years and 9 years prior to that for 2 years, I left before when I was pregnant because he wouldn't stop hitting me. I thought in the time we had apart he wouldve realized and changed, but no I could really see the cycle in full force by the end of it, and he was so cruel to my eldest all the time, the verbal and emotional is sometimes worse.<br />
I love this poem it is so inspiring :) it's been 7 weeks I've been free the kids are really happy,

Thank you for your comment. I am glad to hear you found the strength to get away. No One deserves to live a life in fear...