Because Letting Go Isn't Enough

I never stopped much to think about it because my life has being good so far. I mean, I got into a great college, I have friends and overall a wonderful family. I've struggled with depression once or twice, but I never thought abuse might be the cause, mostly becuse I didn't even remember. However, this year I met those relatives again and it started to come back. At first, I thought it was no big deal because, as I said, I moved on with my life. But I've been thinking about it more and more. First, I'm not still sure if it actually happened: I remember this cousin, he was about 18 back then, taking me to his bedroom and touching me, but I think there wasn't any penetration. He never asked me not to tell like most molesters do, but I never did because I was so ashamed. I kinda think it was partialy my own fault, as I'm not even sure if I disliked it. It's all a big blur. Only one thing I can remember: his sister finding out and telling us both to stop. She scolded both of us but never told anyone else. I visited those relatives for two other summers, in which nothing happened, but never came back again. Sometimes I wonder if my mind is just making it all up, as I've read depressed minds can do that, specially because I've had relationship issues and tht would be the perfect alibi. I just can't bring myself to accuse someone if i'm not sure. The problem is that this cousin has a 3 year-old daughter right now, and I'm worried about her. I just don't know what to do. Do I tell someone even if I'm not sure or do I wait until everything is clear?
snowblossom snowblossom
1 Response Sep 14, 2012

oooooooo, this is a tricky one, but i think you should say something/tell, what you explained had too much detail for it too be made up or could it. i still believe you should speak up