Petei was adopted in 1982ish I have had issues ever since. i have trust issues, self esteem issues , anger issues possessive issues, emotional instability. and the list goes on i have real deep feelings of resentment towards most situations i struggle with the simple emotion of love i can't seem to feel it or trust it. Unless i have lost it. plagued with feelings of worthlessness and guilt about not being brave enough to let my shield down and let people in. Im lucky to have friends that understand but after years of bitterness towards family life my gf has finally given me the shove. I dont blame her i cheated on her was nasty and spiteful towards her all because i cant deal with love or believe that she cares that much about me having analyzed these feelings i guess its coz i really hate myself and always have i wish i knew where to turn to deal with all my raw emotion and turn it into something constructive.
I wish i could describe what goes on in my head but i really cant is all really confusing.at