My Father was alcoholic, I always thought it was my repsonbility to save him / help him. My controlling mother put me in the middle because she thought it might help. Chaotic childhood situation at 5. Picked him off the steps, out of the driveway, etc. I always thought for myself and was always judged and criticized for it. My mother turns everything around on my and makes everything that upsets me my fault. I am tired of emotional abuse. After leading my own life for many years, I am still at a loss as to how to deal with her continuous abuse.