He Was Meant To Protect Me From These Things!
Is it my fault? I was 7 when it started, He and my mother parted, me and my oldest and younger brother visited him every weekend during this course of time he would abuse me...sexually, mostly when i was sleeping, i remember waking up one night and looking down seeing a mans head down at my privates, i was scared because i didn't know who it was, then his eyes looked up at my face and then i knew, It was my dad, i just froze, i didn't know what to do, but the worst thing was my two brothers shared a room with me, then the questions started flying around my head, did he touch them too? i then rolled over hoping he couldn't get to me then, but he just forced me back over, i was scared but continued to pretend to be asleep, he then got up and left, i didn't sleep for the rest of the night, that morning i watched as my brothers woke up, stll pretending to be asleep. i then got up and walked into the front room, he looked up from where he was sitting and casually said 'Morning princess did you sleep well?' i was confused was he really acting like nothing ever happened or was he really unaware of the happening of the night?, This abuse continued for another 5 years, moving it up more and more to eventually him trying to have sex with me, that's the time i fought back, too much, i went home that night to my mams and i pretended nothing happened, the abuse continued still until i finally told someone i couldn't trust she went and spread it around my secondary school, i had questions flying at me from here there and everywhere, and then my mother found out, she shouted at me a lot, i was scared, was it my fault? then my brother came home and went to beat me, my mother held him back, He was screaming at me why would i lie about someone so great, i looked at him and said i wouldn't and fell to the ground, he burst in to tears and crawled over to me and kissed my head saying if he knew he would have protected me, that he should of protected me. but no one could but my self. i am now 14 and court is in 28 days, I WILL WIN!