Hm...

It'r realy hard for me to talk about this... or write for that mattre... actually since it happend I may have gotten far enough to admit that I was abused... but eventhought I have been in therapy since then I've never talked about it... and I'm still not shure if I can... but having others around with even as bad or probably wores memories makes it kind of easier... and than there is tha fact that no one here can look at me and tell me you don't believe... yeah you can write it but it wouldnt be as hard as if you could actually look at me as if I just raly dissapointed you by telling the worst tale ever...

ok befor evrything I got to say that I allways was a realy active allmost hyperactive child and I was allways testing the limite... somtimes it was dangerous for me ... and my mum did sometimes spank us but pack then I never realy felt of it as abuse... I allways knew why and I allways hat to admit that what I did was wrong and that I knew before I did it, that it would get me in to trouble... even today I'm not shure if I considre this spankings back then as abuse... but they sure had the effect that I stayed quiet for a longer period afterwards...

after my mum died (never knew my father) my older sister wasn't regarded as a fit guardien (never realy understood why but I believe it was just because she moved back to switzerland as soon as she was able to and only came back to us after Mum died...) so we went into fostercare, my twinsister the new born baby and me... luckily we were able to stay together... but we didn't had that much luck with the family ... first only he thretend us like if we'd desrespect them in anyway we would get the beating of or live... I allways stood befor my twin, to safe her, befor that and now even more... I was tought then...
so one day my sister exidently throw her plate to the floor... when our fasterfather stamt in the room and already yelld at us for the explenation she was to frightend to say anything so I told him that it was an acedent and that it wasn't on purpos... I didn't had the chance to say anything more, he tolde me he would theach me to destroy their things and lie about it after they had shown us the generossity to take us in...

sorry but I just cant go any futher... let's just say he kept his word and did this many other times as well...I'll probably finish it an other time...
SamPrue SamPrue
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1 Response May 24, 2012

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