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My Mother Beat Me

my mother beat me and my sisters

i was beaten for trying to learn to write with my left hand

my mother beat me with such rage. my mother had such rage

issues. its like she enjoyed beating me and my sisters.
some people dont desirve the gift of being a parent ..

lunnas lunnas 41-45, F 21 Responses Mar 1, 2010

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That's nothing when u was at my uncles house he beat me Lyk iam a toy he treated me Lyk hell he used to woke me up at 7 nd used to tell me that go and run 5 rounds of the park and a man used to be behind me if I stop that man would spank me on my bum when I used to return there he used to eat his food with family and used to tell that u go and eat something of night and the fresh food which use to remain and the fresh food was given to the dog's after that my uncle use to tell me that u have to study that and this till night if I dnt get ready then u see after that my aunt used to tell me go and bring that go and bring this massage me like iam their slave whenever she feels angry she used to hurt me saying about my parents and his children's used to never took me to play with them and used to talk to me very badly so that day I did not get time to study so my uncle came eat food had a bath he was an police man and that day his officer told him if u dnt work harder u will be demoted so he was very angry so he was telling his wife means my aunt and he told me to massage his legs and then he will take up my studies so I heard everything after some time it was about 8 o'clock evening and after some time they both started fighting and I was studying he suddenly came and started asking me questions and that day i did not study bcoz I was doing work whole day of my aunt he asked me 36 questions and I answered only 4 of them each answer was more then 7-8 line he told me come here he took out my t shirt and my pant he brought his leather belt and started spank in me with both side of that belt and he brought a chair he told me to bend he told a man to bring a wooden stick and he bate me under my bum about 9-10 times and I was crying badly and he took his hanky and putted In my mouth that no one should understand that iam getting beated up he told me many bad words he bate me with his hands, legs, kane, tree wood, leather belt, a thick wooden stick with oil on it and beat me on my foot he bate me about 1-2 hrs and after that he took out my under ware and putted me In a dark room for 7 days means a weak I used to get 4 slices of bread, onion and pot of water that's it for a day i used to sleep hungry for those 7 days and every day he used to come inside gave me 2-3 slaps and bad words and used to go after those 7 days I saw light and I used to do toilet in that dark room only he gave my clothes I worn them I got food and he told now u have to learn at least 10 of them he shouted vry badly after that I could give nly 8 of them bcoz I was vry depressed and I was not able to read or write something bcoz I was in a vry bad condition he bate me with his belt and told to stand at the corner of the hall for a day and I was feeling to rest I was standing there for 16 hours and after some time I jst fated when I think I was about 13 yrs old I was jst a small child after some days I packed my bag and left that place I studied till 12th without any help and now iam a computer engineer in London thank god that I left that house....... now I dnt know their name and nothing I did small small work and now iam succful and a rich man.....

And searched them on streets every whare and I found and they now stay with me

i understand.

my mom beat me for dumb **** like i had do this this long *** packet and she keep saying ima woop ur *** if its not done and when im trying to get it all done she beat me with i cord and its a sowlen on the left cheek of my butt i swear sometime i **** hate the point where i dont even wanna look at her but she do me right sometime and she dont know how to control her anger

My mom beat me. She was and is bipolar

My mother beat me as a child also. Many times I went to school with Black eyes, busted lips, bruises on my head and back, Welts from a belt on my legs, arms and back...I hurt so much...sometimes my joints would hurt from the beating. She told me when I was 10 years old. that she did not want me, and the only reason I was here was because she could not get an abortion. She took me to an orphanage when I as one year old but my father made her take me home. She did not want me. I grew up, and I cannot forget or forgive her. I cannot feel love or pity for her. I feel nothing for her.

oh my lord she told you all that? I am sorry for what you went threw . my mother was like that . I feel nothing for her not even after her death a year ago .I agree with you for not feeling love for her or even pitty for her . Icant understand why mothers are like that mine was . but I made myself the mother I wanted so badly from my mother. I am more than the mother i was given and I know if I should die my daughter would love me and miss me . they cant care or even see the pain they cause you . I am so sorry for all you've been threw .

I'm 13, asian-american, and my mom beats me. i have nowhere to go. i'm scared.

I a m so sorry for all your going threw . its wrong to ever hit a child.

Go to a shelter. Go to a church, someone will listen to you and help you. It won't get better.

I'm asian-american too and my mother beat me from the ages of about 9 until about 15. I thought that it was just how asian mothers were. It almost killed me. I've attempted suicide once by the time I was 12. My advice to you, please seek help. You're not alone, you're not weak, and you're much smarter than I was at your age. I never would've thought to ask for help. Feel free to message me if you need someone to vent to.

I'm french so sorry for my poor English . Finaly i find peoples how have the same kind of experiance in they childwood. My mother was a dictator a tiran at home and my father has no balls to stop her she always talk to him with disrespect but he never complain .To come back on me my mother was beating me very often and hardly i'm not going to tell you evry details from evry time it happened because it would take to long .For my father he never spent any time with me he alway treat me like a sheet probably because he was not able to face my mother so i was nothing els than a west of time with nothing you can be proud or cloth to your son, insulte and diminimize me all the time .I promess to my self when i was a child they'll pay for what they've done to me and at 17 year old first signs of trouble start to show up in my head. They try to make me a lier or a sensitive personne but it's not true they lie they are together against me and the rest of the family don't want to take parts because they have to much to loose my mother bought them not me i'm free evry thing i have,i've got it from my self and alway refuse evrything because i knew i will be bought like the other how shut up under the dictature .i'm free and tell them what i want they have no gripp on me and this worth millions for me now it's my time to make them pay for what they done to me because now my life is a mess and i try to survive evry day with that sheet in my head my anger is sometime terrible i want to break evrything when this things come back to my minde i have nightmars too and take me a few days to recover .I've been success full in many way like compagnies and sports because i'm a fighter but behind that i have a lot of problems of instability i have a daughter how know every thing she's 9 and i love her a lot i want for her the best and i alway tell her how i love her and how i'm proud of her i will be they untill i die i dedicate my life to her she's the only personne i have today ,i could spend hours to tell you how important . She see my parents and spend time with them ,because it happen to me not to her but the truth is not hiden she knows why today i'am such in trouble with myself and alone in my life, stragling to meet peoples i 'have big problemes with gilrs i love girls i have 3 wifes in my life but now i'm alone if a girl try to put some pressure or give me orders or be disrespecfull to me,it 's like an explosion in my head and i become very ungry and nervous ( don't make me wrong i'm not a bad guy i never heat any body i leave and you never see me again ) and the past resurface,i don't want to be treat like most of the man how play the big boy but at home have they taile between thy legs when it come to be a man probably they are frighten to not have sex for the next 3 months . We all know the truth but nobody has the balls to tell it because they are slaves, slaves of they wifs. My mother use to say to my father if you live you go only with your underwear you know what that mean even if the traduction is not perfect .Live your life free as you can look at yourself in the mirror and be a man not try to pretend to be don't play the big man at the gym or in your muscle car or with your friends we all know how woman punish man, with SEX the famous headeak. I try my best with the vocabulary i have to discribe what happen to me .

Your english is just fine .I feel so sorry for all that you've been put threw . its so sad

My mother hits me and beats me and hits me for no reason i feel like running away everytime at least 4 times a week she hits me. or more thats the least. She loves my sister so much more than me. and everyone hates me in the house. She hits me with a belt, with a stick anything she can find her hands she punches me.<br />
i wish i could just die. I dont have anyone to turn to or as for help. Where i stay hitting is not really ilegal.<br />
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Please help. I dont know what to do. But i love her sometimes and when she hits me i just hate her...

If you need someone to talk to I am here! Please feel free talk to me.

My mother hits me and beats me and hits me for no reason i feel like running away everytime at least 4 times a week she hits me. or more thats the least. She loves my sister so much more than me. and everyone hates me in the house. She hits me with a belt, with a stick anything she can find her hands she punches me.<br />
i wish i could just die. I dont have anyone to turn to or as for help. Where i stay hitting is not really ilegal.<br />
<br />
Please help. I dont know what to do. But i love her sometimes and when she hits me i just hate her...

My mother hits me and beats me and hits me for no reason i feel like running away everytime at least 4 times a week she hits me. or more thats the least. She loves my sister so much more than me. and everyone hates me in the house. She hits me with a belt, with a stick anything she can find her hands she punches me.<br />
i wish i could just die. I dont have anyone to turn to or as for help. Where i stay hitting is not really ilegal.<br />
<br />
Please help. I dont know what to do. But i love her sometimes and when she hits me i just hate her...

can you tell a teacher ,paster, the police? this is abuse child abuse if your a child . i hope this helps you

My mother hits me and beats me and hits me for no reason i feel like running away everytime at least 4 times a week she hits me. or more thats the least. She loves my sister so much more than me. and everyone hates me in the house. She hits me with a belt, with a stick anything she can find her hands she punches me.<br />
i wish i could just die. I dont have anyone to turn to or as for help. Where i stay hitting is not really ilegal.<br />
<br />
Please help. I dont know what to do. But i love her sometimes and when she hits me i just hate her...

Don't stay there anymore. Seek a shelter. It doesn't get any better. My mother beat me for 25 years. Get help from a church now.

I left my daughter w/ my mother.& it wasn't three minute after I left her home to bbysit my daughter, that I heard a humongous pop!. I run back to her place to retrieve my daughter.. I was hurt n disappointed... She beat the helll into us.. & it took a lifetime for me to get over it..

ty so much for that coment flossy,<br />
hey my books finished being edited so looks like we are trying to get my books in stores by december

hello - I have read all of the above with huge admiration. I've only just joined this site - I discovered it by doing a google-hit the night before last, to see how I might be able to bury the demons of my past. I was talking to one of my brothers on the 'phone and he and I somehow managed to stray deeply into subject of our abusive childhood. I NEVER talk about it - the reason I don't is because it affects me sooo badly afterwards and for sooo longl,tthe afterwards; I find myself deeply upset, unable to sleep, I over-use alcohol and it takes me weeks to start to even out. I have unfortunately chosen badly when it comes to counsellors - so i have not continued to explore counselling (the counsellors didn't seem to be able to handle what i told them about the abuse!). So anyway, I've chosen to never talk about it, quash the thoughts/memories as best i can. But after my brother and I talked, i couldn't sleep and went on-line to see if I could find a site of similar-experienced people. And I have.... <br />
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I want to say, lunnas, that you are a star and I too have used the negative-into-positive approach. when I was about 9yrs old, after yet another beating, I decided that I would do that. I did struggle with the notion of one day becoming a parent because I worried that i might do the same to my kids - ie beat them. I was 30 (6 years married) before I knew I was ready and it would be safe for me to bring a child into the world. I had steadied out, as the man I married was so calm and cheerful. A good influence on my prone-to-low mood. I love my only child would not hurt a hair on his head. The house was one of laughter when he was growing up (he's 17 now, still laughs a lot!) - my family home was one of tears, screaming, always darkened rooms, beatings, minimal food, and HUGE fear. I am now amazed at how me and my brothers didn't lose our minds. Having said that, I think we all have a little bit. I am one of 5 children. All 5 of us have problems with our tempers. Rages, loss of relationships as a result. Rages with each other, which saddens me - we of all people should soothe each other. Alcohol is my problem, and at least 2 of my siblings have been/are on drugs<br />
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Anyway, sorry to write so much but it is such a relief to find a place to share this, after 40 long years! Thanks for being there all of you x

Marji,<br />
oh hun iam so sorry for the pain you had to enure, you know i felted the same way about my mother <br />
it was like she went off the deep end and i was thinking could be be going threw the change.<br />
but it still hurts just the same . i do love my mom as much as i can mine really did go nuts 27 personallitys so to this day iam not sure if i really ever met the real mom . but there were personalitys that i do keep as my mom, some days she was like mrs brady , and some days <br />
she was mommie dearest joan croffard , and he would be come just like her . then some days <br />
she was like a teenager playing music , it was cool some times. so i guess thats why i can deal with so much crazyness becalse in my parents house there was never much ballance or<br />
''normal '' . but what is really normal? i sure dont know . but in my house iam the same day after day guess iam borring , but iam contented with my life iam very happy .

ty so much equis,<br />
god has showed me so much grace and showed me my own strenth.<br />
and i must say with god all things are possable i live to be a example to others<br />
the journy hasnt been easy by no means but i have learned so much about myself<br />
its changed me in so many ways. iam so blessed by god to be albe for god to use <br />
me to help others . ive often wondered what was i put on earth for ? now iam seeing the <br />
biger picture its like gods showing me what his plan is for me , ive even had a preacher<br />
to tell me i have a gift and a minesrty to help hurting people . and when god <br />
starts showing me what is in his plan i can really feel his power . god is so good <br />
i pray my blogs and storys inspire others , whom ever they call thier god even if its buta, or even the great sprit , god is known by man names hes there just call on god and belive with all your heart he will help you .

ty so much <br />
my life goes on happly

Looks like you're doing well. Sorry for your troubles, glad things are better.

ty goahead , <br />
gods helped me threw so many things and i wouldnt be who iam<br />
with out god , thanks for ur kind coments

prayers God Bless you goahead

yeah i was the same with my mother <br />
ive chosen to be a better mother of my daugher <br />
i have chosen to learn from my mothers mistakes<br />
i choose never to hit my daugher . ive chosen <br />
to raise my daughter with love. i dont see my mother much<br />
theres nothing there for her not love not hate eather its just empty in my<br />
heart how do you love some one that chose to abuse and hit you?<br />
i dont let my daughter see her much eather ,and when we visit <br />
i never let my daughter be alone with my mother