Have You Any Idea?

After being raped repeatedly by a guy who was 4 years my seniour, [all i needed was a support system, a wise word, a friend (parents got divorced and i shouldered the blame unintentionally)], i felt like a worthless piece of meat, hell, i eventually enjoyed it i guess... ****!! I still get flashbacks from when it happened, i was 14, very impressionable.. I hate myself, feel like it was my fault..it hurts still.. He turned on me when i needed guidance, i never wanted anything more..
mickey159 mickey159
22-25, M
1 Response Jun 14, 2012

thank you. The worst part is that being a guy, you don't think it could ever happen, y'know? And i think that made it worse..