A Lot!

I don't remember a time when I wasn't. In grade school it was teasing, being called "ten ton tessie", having my pants pulled down & everybody laugh.

In high school it was just being shunned. Because I was a big, shy girl, I guess I was an easy mark. I had a really MEAN prank played on me.

A boy I really liked asked if I might want to go see a movie. I of course said YES! Heehee!! We were going to meet at the school on that Saturday. I went home all excited, momma was so excited for me. My very first date. I couldn't wait for Saturday!! My mom's friend came over & they helped me get ready. Momma gave me some money (just in case he didn't have enough). Good thing... He wasn't there when I got there. Instead there was a group of popular girls there. The ringleader was laughing her *** off. Said that it figured a fat *** like me would dress up for a date that would never happen. What was I thinking, that a popular boy like ______ would want to date a girl who always smells & eats like a pig! I was really proud of myself, I didn't cry. They followed me to the streetcar. I got on, and went to the movies....alone. I was too ashamed to go home & tell my mom what had happened. I didn't want to disappoint her. She'd been so happy for me. It was nice while the bubble lasted....

I phoned her after the movie, when I was a bit calmer (having spent the entire movie bawling in the back). I told her I was on my way home, & that I had paid my own way. I told her what really happened the next day after her friend had left. She cried & got mad. Wanted to call the school & give them sh!t. Heehee!! Have I said how much I love my momma. She's such a mother bear when it comes to me. I love her for that! I quit school two weeks later because the girls had of course blabbed about how I was all dressed up & looking forward to a date. I could only take being laughed at again for so long. That's the real reason I quit high school when I was 16.....

I don't know if this story is going to help anyone realize why I am the way I am, but to the guys in my circle (& the special one, he knows who he is) that is why I am so emotional, & so scared of being hurt, because I've had my feelings used against me & been the blunt of cruel jokes because of it. I hope you will forgive me. I am sorry!!

Teri =((

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21 Responses Mar 7, 2009

aw da bitchez i would have slapped the guy and said no ***** stands me up and then kick him as hard as you could in balls 3 times!

I actually think you were very brave.

Hi Teri, I'm Tori! I think that people who are like that, and who make fun, are insecure jerks. They are people who need to learn that degrading others is NOT fair. I get called a 'loser' or 'fat' or told "If he won't keep you as a girlfriend, nobody else freaking wants you." I don't listen anymore. I figured if they don't like me, it's their problem. If my parents try to change me, or force me not to like someone, I don't listen. Please remember, always stay strong. It's worth it in the end :)

thats so sadd i used to get bullied all the time i was called fat and ugly and i used to go and cry from how mean they got to me and they'd call me a cry baby. thats why i am very emotional but i had the bestest friends in the world who always helped me but then i had to move to another country and i misss them so much but the country i am now people dont bully only a little but i dont really care.and B.T.W thats why am very upset and always gloomy i just dont understand why people bully!!! :s and now im all alone with no best firend and i feel that people hate me anways i feel sorry for you about that story and what they did was just deep and cruel.<br />

you are so brave, not many people would have the courage to stand up for themselves, and u know what they say, "what goes around comes around" the kids who were mean to you probably ended up having a crap life, they have to look at themselves everyday in a mirror and feel ashamed, but you can look in the mirror and be proud, even if you cryed, you endured it, these people probably had stuff going on at home, and in this day and age these people would not be welcomed into society

I Know how you feel and you hav nothing to be sorry for they should rot in hell for wat they did

u know...itd look better for you had you had the guts to pick upa pop and slap it on their faces it make them look better >.....>....

i'm really sorry that happened to you, i actually can feel your pain.<br />
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i don't want to alarm you but you may have a bit of post-dramatic stress disorder(i suffer from this big time) maybe you could consider seing a counselor or someone who can help put this horrible experience behind you (=

that is so horrible! i feel so bad for you!!!

That's completely awful. I had something similar happen to me and I know how it feels. You were so strong to walk away and not let them see you cry, they are cruel people to think something like that is a joke. I hope you can work passed the fear and let people in and be happy, you deserve it :)

I know what is like to be bullied by those girls i call them all the"it chicks" BIG is BEAUTIFUL(MORE TO LOVE) one of my best friends is bigg and i love her for it we madee upp are own game shesso fun keep your head up high and tell them birds to fly! YEAAA great storie though its sad:(

There is so much cruelty that people are capable of, and sadly it doesn`t end when schools over. Thanks for sharing

i know how you feel i had a similar high school experience with bullies. the difference is i am a guy who was very skinny and was raised by a single mother who preached pacifism. so consequently i was beaten up several times throughout school and bullied mercilessly. i feel for you but remember that children (especially teens) are cruel people mostly because they are all very insecure. as teens we are all trying to figure out who we are what we are going to do with our lives and trying to understand all of these bizarre changes our bodies are going through. that doesn't excuse what they did to you but that is unfortunately how things work in life. its not fair and it never will be fair we just have to learn to adapt accept what we cannot change and change what we can change. mostly we all have to learn that people can be confident without demonizing or belittling those around us.<br />
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my god could i have rambled and stumbled through that much more than i did?? LOL

I know how you feel.

OMG! Honey, I am so sorry that you had to deal with such horrid people. You did not do anything to deserve being treated like that. No own deserves that (except maybe the people who did it to you). <br />
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What have we said about apologizing for the way you feel? You have every right to feel the way you do!! <br />
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Those people are the ones who should be sorry. You keep you head up!! They will have to answer for their actions in the end, if not before. Karma is a *****!! <br />
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I luv ya girl!!! and I think you are AMAZING!!! Take back your power. Don't let them still hold any of it.

Wh .... Takes courage to post an experience such as this<br />
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Testimony to the quality of person you are ......<br />
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By example we inspire , and anyone who reads this will undoubtedly take inspiration ......

I agree with everyone - you have nothing to be sorry about. I now know how your mother must have felt - I have 2 daughters and if anyone ANYONE ever did that to them - I would be ready to kill! My oldest has come home enough times this year because of other nasty little girls who like to talk about each other behind their backs and, I am so proud, because my oldest is soooo compassionate, she doesn't want to do that to people and therefore, she gets her feeling hurt A LOT! So, you have a great mom - and I am glad that you are close to her.<br />
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For what happened to you, I am so sorry and we can only hope that those girls either straightened up and realized that they were MEAN or that they got subjected to that kind of teasing at sometime - I do KNOW that going to college and being a Freshman happens to humble quite a few of the "popular people" - that usually does a big job towards turning them around. I read your story and I want to go back and be your friend - the friend that tells them off, reports them to the administration and talks you into staying in school.<br />
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I think you show that you are a strong person - you survived AND you are brave enough to share your story - maybe someone that either IS or HAS gone through a similar situation will gain strength from reading you story and be encouraged!<br />
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The more I know you - the more I know that people missed out on a great, thoughtful person.

(((BIG HUG))) Thanks for sharing your story!!!

You have nothing to be sorry for or be forgiven for. As for those who did that to you, I hope every time they look in the mirror, they remembet that. They won't like what they see. I apologise for THEM, WynHaven.

Awwww that was so cruel. I am sorry honey.

awe this is so cruel but thats what a bully does. i hate it i am sorry this happened to you!