What Are Big Brothers For?I was always fascinated by makeup and girl's clothes when I was young. My mother once caught me putting on makeup in our bathroom when I was around 7 or 8. She blew a gasket and was going to make me wear one of my sister's dresses. I cried like a baby, not even sure if I pleaded my case or not. She backed down. I thought I learned my lesson and didn't "experiment" any further. Then when I was 11, my brother thought it would be fun to try on older sister's bathing suits. She had two piece and a black one piece. We took turns trying them on, and looked at ourselves in the mirror. Only problem was that when I tried on the one piece, I felt a funny sensation. Now I had had erections before, but none like this. That fashion show was soon over, but it made an permanent mark on my pre pubescent mind. I later went on to try on the black one piece again, this time on my own. That is a story in itself, but because of that next time by myself, I started thinking that, wow, this must be how girls feel all the time wearing their clothes. I then went back and forth for years wondering whether I should be a cheerleader or a football pla
So, one afternoon while my mom and dad were at work, both older sisters were away at college, and my brother was off listening to music somewhere, I decided to play dressup with one of my sister's dresses (oddly enought it is the same one my mother traumatized me with years earlier). Can't remember clearly, but I believe I also applied a little makeup. As I was checking out myself in the mirror, the phone rang which I ignored. That was a trigger for my brother to come looking for me to see why I didn't answer it. He opened the bathroom door to find me there strutting around in my sister's dress. He didn't laugh. Got more irate than anything. Started addressing me as "****** wears dresses". Not really a good name. I would have been happier with Janine, or Jackie. But he said that in passing for the next two or three years, never in front of any other family or friends, but any chance he got. Needless, it never did stop me from wanting to wear my sister's clothes.