Hurt Before Xmas
I'm 31, gave two beautiful children that I raise by myself. I know I should be very prof. But this week, right before xmas, I was completely degraded by twpeople very close to me. My boyfriend of two years seemed almost perfect. Things happened very quickly between us., basically I got pregnant very soon. After the baby was born, I allowed him to move in. We never fought. He helped with both my son and my seven year old daughter from a previos relationship. About three months ago, he started to have money problems and turned into a monster. He never abused me physically, but u felt it was only a matter of time. I decided that we needed space and made him leave. We went to counseling and had our UPS and downs but things were getting better. We started spending more time together and he would call me 50 times a day to tell me he loves me. This past week I found out he not only made a pass at my cousin, but she continued to text him back and forth for an hour. She didn't do anything. But she never told him she was telling. So I'm thinking she didn't want him to stop.she also didn't tell me for two days. The worst part is that he won't admit to it. He swears it was his friend that usedhis phone. I know I didn't do anything, but I can't help but feel they both made a fool out of me. I am hurting so bad. It's not like it is a stranger and I could avoid her. She is having xmas dinner with my family tonight. Should I tell her not to come. I am done with him. I know I deserve better thanthis. But I still hurt so bad. I have two kids so I . need to be strong for them. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I hope the more I talk about it, the less dirty I feel. can someone please tell me why I am feeling so dirty.