Letters To My Husband

My dearest Smubble

I really don't know how to say everything that I truly need to. First off you need to know that you hurt me beyond repair. I go into work and hear people talking about how I've lost my passion for life. I no longer feel beautiful. Honestly I no longer feel anything but misery.

I know I wasn't always the best wife but I gave up everything for you. I never was unfaithful, I always helped clean the house, but most importantly I loved you with everything I had. You were always the most important thing in my life and I thought I was the most important in your life but I guess I was wrong. I understand that I occasionally got depressed and just wanted to sleep but is that a reason to cheat on me? I know I'm not the best but couldn't you just say to me that you didn't want to be with me anymore.

And the worst part is that you lied to me and you are continuing to lie to me. You deny cheating on me even though I caught you. Do you honestly think me to be that stupid? So not only am I not worth you being faithful to, I'm not worth being told the truth.

I want nothing more than to take you back like you have asked me to but I know that for my well-being I can't. I still haven't forgiven you nor do I think I ever will. I would love nothing more than to fall asleep with your arms around me. If I take you back though I will lose what little respect I have for myself back.

I can only hope that the day will come when I don't cry myself to sleep, when I don't hope everytime the phone rings that it is you calling me. I hope I will stop missing you. I hope I will stop having imaginary conversations with you.

And to you my dear husband I hope the rest of your life is happy. I hope you always keep up with your dreams of being a business owner. And I do hope you can find someone you will love more than you loved me.

Forever yours,
ayoungone ayoungone
18-21, F
1 Response Nov 26, 2012

According to your profile, you are young. How long were you married for? There is still your whole life ahead of you. I wish you the best and that you find what you are seeking. :)