I Forgive You Julian
I hate what you have done to me. I hate that you betrayed my trust, my love, and our relationship. When I thought you told me you loved me I thought it was for me and me alone. I can't believe that you lied on me several times and had many adulterous affairs. All I ever wanted was the truth and that was to hard for you. When you knew you didn't want to stay married why didn't you just leave me alone? Why create a child with me if you knew you wouldn't be there to help raise her with me. I loved you and my heart is screaming and it's hard at times to breath through the pain you caused. I cry at times not understanding why I can't seem to hate you. Maybe it's the way I was raised after all you and I were suppose to be christians. I more than you I guess. It hurt me to learn of you having a son with another woman during the course of our marriage and for 3 years you lied and took money I worked hard for to support us when you couldn't work to send to that woman. I look into our child's eyes everyday and I see you. I see the you I loved and the good this is in her. I know that even though you don't love her like you should she will be more than you ever imagined. We neither need you to help us be the best that we can be. Julian we will simply be the best because God our father will help us get there. I wanted to tell you Julian I forgive you. I feel sorry for you because you have yet to realize the caliber of degree you hurt yourself. I love you but I'm moving on. I hope you can live with the idea that you are simply and truly a failure at real love.
Goodbye my love,