There you can still see her in my avatar picture. The two of us, a love so sweet high in drama and passion. 18 months highs and lows. She is from a different country. And now I think I got replaced. She broke up to make up her mind in November, I supported the break-up because I was not happy how she handled me, had to get her past resolved, few weeks later I received a message that she loved me very much. December 30 I got a message invoking God and eternity over our love, 3 days later I tried frantically calling her, and got no where. Her phone dead as it were, and in her family I got no hold of her. Finally I get another English speaker on the line who is making threats. It sinks in that he is my successor. I am still bewildered, because while I was half OK with my sweet girl moving on, I was not prepared for her doing it this way after pumping me up with sweet declarations of love. I can hardly believe it and have some small hopes that this is just a bad dream. But I fully expect that this is it. Very sad, very very sad. I think I will get over her, but all our shared hopes and dreams gone, that is a big sad loss.