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I was cheated by my "boyfriend" .... it's been almost 2 and 1/2 years.......He lied everything about him......He was married n having affirs with lots of girls.....may be involved with call girl also....He still want to marry me ....He always told that I am sexy...beautiful....He loves me so much...blah..blah... Now I am feeling so insulted....now I realise he just wanna marry me for sex and money

.I had sacrifise so many things for him....I had to go to college at morning…. I  came back  from my college at evening......I have to complete my study....I  can't sleep  because of him. he had night shift sometimes ( he told me  that )....he gave me missed call  at  night. n  I had to wait for it  till midnight....After getting missed call  I called back him and we talked at night......sometimes he told me he want to sleep  for 1 hour and  i  need to call him after 1 hour...so I was sitting in front of clock  to wake him up exactly after 1 hour ... I had to go to college next day....still I did this for him ...I was madly in love... 
I saved my  money for tifin ...I didn't eat anything  whole day in college....didn't  took a bus but  returned home walking.....and lied  to my mom  to give him money
I sacrifice my god carrer option for him. I  sacrifise my dream carrer even. At that time it does not seem to me   “ I AM  SACRIFICING  “    because  I  loved him soooooo much.

He asked several times for physical intimacy.....I did'nt agree but I felt guilty sometimes for that....Few month ago he told again .... We had a quarrel....then i said ok.......But I didn't mean sex ....He forced me to have sex..... He  put my dress up  forcefully.....then  opened my bra.....I didn't expect  it  at all.... it was so fast  I didn't understand anything....then he  throws  his body over me.....I  realise I could  do nothing If he did anything....He was too strong.....
I was begging him n    crying.....He licked  tears   running down my face  n kissed all over my body and embrace me tight...and kissed again and again...
then  I felt  he  puts his  pants a little down....I  felt  his ****  on me...I felt so bad..
Then I realized   what  was   comming ..... I was afraid of pain, pregnancy....lots of things....my mom told me not to do this .....I applied  all  my  power  and  pushed  him.....He  asked  then...Will  u  let  me   or not ?? I  firmly said  no....he was soo angry.....I  said then I  love you  but  I can't do it now.. he said it's ok....but  next time I have to  give myself  completely  to  him...He does not  care about me at all.  Only thing he cares about   was  his physical satisfaction . He told  I have to satisfy him.
I didn't say anything.........He told me  he was virgin , he  was waiting for me  for  almost 2 and 1/2 years   n   he can't  control  himself  anymore....I  felt that  he loves me so much that he sacrifices  his virginity  for  these years.....

now  I    am so depressed, so insulted.... he could gift me lots of deseases (STD) !!!!
I am still virgin . I felt sooooooo  insulted that  I was naked in front of him once. I  just can't  breathe at night   now. I  want to kill him  with a chopper…I  can   give myself  to that  person  who truly loves me , cares about me, respect  my opinion  may be he is not agree with me…but respect that….He doesn't  deserve me n my love at  all.
 I was  genuine from the very beginning  . I didn't care how much gift he gave me ..I just expect ture heart.  He  didn't  even  gave me small earings, flower, didn't wish me happy birthday.....At the begining he gave me  chocolate, on my first birthday  in this relation he gave me gift....that was formality.....coz when he realise I  didn't  care about those....He  behave  he is luckly he didn't have to spend money for me rather I gave him money every time......He pretend too busy  if I asked him about  birthday  wishing.....I don't like to force anyone.....u can't get love forcefully...If  i  forced he can gave me gift but I think no spontinuous heart is involved in that....so I didn't need money..gift in that way.....I thought  he was my soul mate…..our eternal love……we’ll live together till we die n we’ll die together……I was soooo childish  !!!!! 

I  knew  all  about him from another  person  who  knows about  both of us……He  told me that  he doesn’t   have  my number  otherwise he   would inform me all about these n  warrened  me  not to get involved  with him…….he is a 3rd class guy…. I would be senseless  if  I  heard  all about him…… my  “  boyfriend  “ is a cheater….. he cheated  on different people……….so many girls……his father  married second time an younger girl  n  lived in another place….but my  “   boyfriend  “   told me that  his father  was  missing for 7 years  n they consider him dead .
My  “  boyfriend  “  even misinformed about me to that person (  he is like my elder brother  )   that  I knew all about  my “ boyfriend “  n about  his marriage  n affairs   still I want to continue with him  to have fun !!!!!!      I was shocked .

I   told  him that  my  “  boyfriend  “  took huge amout of money  almost everytime for different reasons……mom’s operation, someone’s cancer…….lots  of   reasons.
He told me all those are  nothing but  fake stories….He is a lier…cheater….he adviced  me to  stay away from him  n stop contacting  him…..my  “  boyfriend  “  cheated  on  him also….He also told me that  my  “  boyfriend  “'s   wife  can not be pregnant  n can’t be a mother….she is the  main earning member in his family……Now I understand  why  my “  boyfriend  “ want to marry  me….for  sex,  baby,  my  good job….
He would   torture  me If he married me.
My “ boyfriend  “  recently  bought  bike….he informed  me about it…n asked  me to pay  the E.M.I……I   paid it every  month  gladly  coz I was doing it for my  boyfriend .

When I told  him  that  I paid the   E.M.I   then  he informed me  it’s my  “  boyfriend “’s
wife  who  took  loan  for his bike…..she made the down payment   I guess now….n  I paid  the E.M.I…..
 I don’t   know  whether  my  “  boyfriend  “  is involved  in some  **** business …… I  didn’t asked  him .
 
He told me that   he called  me sister so he will protect me  from  my  “  boyfriend  “ n  I can call him  anytime  if I need  to talk to him .He adviced  me to concentrate on my carrer   right now  n forget the whole as soon as possible  that will help me….he told me I am still a child. I didn’t  know  how the real world  is  behaving…
I don’t want to hurt my parents…..now  I am felling pretty much pain in my heart......He called me continuously for past 2 months from different numbers but I didn't pick it up.....
  I don’t know  what  u  are thinking about me.....what   type of girl   I am…..I don’t want  to   marry anyone in my whole life….coz  I’m afraid to get involved…… It  hurt  sooooooo much……I know all  the people are not same but still  I hate boyes  now. I  just  wanna  go back to mom's womb ...... that's  the only  safest  place  in the world for me... no one can  harm there........I think  I should die....can  anyone  tell me  what was my fault  ????
richa12345678 richa12345678 22-25, F 21 Responses Sep 13, 2011

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How girls cud be so stupid..? Even wen knowing how rascal he is... still u r hurt.. u shd be happy that u cud save urself from worse..

I would say some of the boys in this world are like that. They act so innocent and do sweet talks. You are so blinded in love that you give ypur self and trust them the most in the world . What they do? They end up keeping affairs at work and ask your sister out in your absence.
Its difficult to judge a person in the beginning but one should be glad to be out if this sh..

This is what exactly happened to me. I understand there are many such idiots. Let me some how come out of it, only then, I can stand example.

just kick his balls n throw him out of ur life

i think there is no mistake other than firm believe on him so now confess every thing to ur parents or sister who can take some burden and now when ever any boy who want to marry confess to her after all he will take care further

he richa ur clean hearted girl god will bless u surely one day u'll get a honest soulmate and u deserve just forget him

Richa there are many ******** in India who lie infront of the girl to get them emotionally involve with them and later on start with luv n finish with sex. Now a days many guys use these type of tricks to cme near to a girl. These guy they can lie to any limit. Like my mom died or my mom suffering from cancer etc, such type of words make a girl very much emotional n soon they got attached to this type of ****. Beware of these type of guy

hmm..ya..thanx

richa dear, try to forget him and concentrate on ur future and take of ur parents na.. they gave you life so think about them and please if any guy proposes you means first tell him your conditions and then enter in relations... so sorry richa all the guys arent be same so when you meet your soulmate na u cannot know him but ur heart will be knowing everything.. if that person is right means your heartbeat becomes faster n faster

Try muslims they aren't allowed to hurt you not extremist though

Don't even consider dying now. You have a full life ahead of you. You never know, eventually you may come across someone who is right for you. Like I said before, you have a full life ahead of you, so live it to the fullest! Good luck, hang in there. You will find your peace eventually. : )

Brave, and forget that bastard. You are young and best days of your life are ahead of you.

thank u.

Wow! U are amazing:)! U have done NOTHING wrong:) you are a strong smart woman with a lot of courage and wisdom:) u deserve the absolute best <3

:))

u know what , its not the person who cheats u who is to be blamed but u have to blame urself ,
its ur fault that u left somebody to cheat u . try listening to ur brain and not ur heart when ur in love

Is not your fault. Forget him or just get into a new relationship if you cant talk to a trusted friend or someone you trust. Don't worry you will get rid of him. Try not to think of him.Just try at least. If you nee help I am guessing, richa people here is for you we will support you.

richa forget that fool and get on with life, u will get someone much better :) cheer up. all is not lost be happy and life will give u what u deserve.

you fault is yu beleived on something that does't exist which is love.

if you really want get over do something tell your self that love doesnot exist. love is a tool used by bad people to harm others.

i am sure if you think and keep thinking this way you will get over and forget.

best luck

ohh....truely you just typed the thought of my mind......that's what I said to myself .......EXACTLY SAME !!!!....and thanks :)

how are you doing now? feeling any better?

hey dear richa...mreally sad for u..:(

i know how much pain it is when ur lve leaves you...my gf also left me cz she was angry on me....we both were in relationship for 3 years but i never ever touched her once becxause i wanted to marry her...and she just left me alone alone :(

i'm so sorry for you , hope you will find your life partner soon , thanx for commenting :)

the experience which dont kill us, fortify us for the coming ones!

What we passed in in our life thread embroiders what we are on now!

Ur pain means that u were honest and tenderhearted, also u love and respect urself, and wanted the good things always to happen, but u refuse to be someone's toy whose childish character invites him to break the toy after enjoying it for sometime! It is not ur fault that he is mean and wicked! I know how hurtful to discover that ur lover is a cheater! Actually we tend to angelize him to call him a lover! But he is a human, and lator could be a very bad one! You have to accomodate to all surprises he could be! Wishing you a great luck in life richa, and find the good man who will compensate u for all what u hve seen, and make ur passed tears to water lovely rosy smiles that always shine :) be blessed!

We all need love, so dont blame urself of loving him!

You could be hungry and buy a sandwich that may contain some spoilt food and get poisoned! Is it ur fault to be hungry and eat?

Just learn and learn and learn to check well ur sandwich next time!!!.....

actually i never thought i have to think like sandwich stuff and business oriented mentality what we have while shopping , Of course your right , because all are doing this , i have no choice except that ....and i don't expect any "good man " or "right person " to come in my life . There is a difference between our normal hunger and this one , i like your msg , but in medical terms we can't live our whole life without having / touching food technically , but we can live ( we won't die physically ) without having sex , and about love and care ?? Love is not always boyfriend girlfriend love ...I may have lot of friends , relatives , so many persons in my life who will love me , It may sound weird , but here ppl like you msg me , its love , may be we never see each other , it means a lot to me , its actually a medicine , and i need it daily or thrice in a week , i wont die without those msg , but i am more good and lively because of these msg .....thank you :)

but i think u r giving a great value to this non worthy mean guy to make u take this big deal decision! He dosnt deserve this big importance being the having the ownership of how u look at life and towards men! He is but the worst pattern! Forget him my dear and just start smiling, i meant by sandwiches that u dont recognize well the content when u take it! I know how romantic u r to never materialize the spirituality of love! But you cant turn urself ino a hermit bcoz u met the devil in a man, my dear angel! You r still young and i know what i missed or forget to say in my nessage, you will know it better with better chances of life!
God bless you dear richa, and may He show u the right way of light :)
take care..

2 and a half years is a long time. You need to get out there, meet new people and 'get over' this bad experience. Hire a therapist/counselor to help you with the recovery. seriously you can't waste your life for anyone.

ok

hey richa m so sad after read this yor story. But u wrote, u hate all boys, but u know only boys doesnt cheat girl , girls are also cheat boys . As u know i m exampal. So plz dont blame only boys .

And abt u m so sad to all of these things what happend with u. From my point of viwes u r so sweet and honest. Just forget everythings and live yor life wid happieness and try to find somone of diserves u and just for u. Coz life is so hard and v need a partner to live it.

God bless u .

Yor friend

yeah , i know dear all guys are not bad, ya , i know what happened to you , im sorry about you , god bless you too , take care

please stop playing the blame game and look for what you did right in the relationship and build yourself back up away from him..........There are choices for you to make and stand up on your own to feet........He has some serious problems which you don't need in your life.........regroup, recoup and find some friends, family, and support group to help you in this time of need........good luck and will be praying for you and if you need people to talk with you are in the right place......there are so many wonderful people here at EP...Steven

its not a blame "game" ......anyways i know some ppl are good ...thanx