Sigh....I was cheated by my "boyfriend" .... it's been almost 2 and 1/2 years.......He lied everything about him......He was married n having affirs with lots of girls.....may be involved with call girl also....He still want to marry me ....He always told that I am sexy...beautiful....He loves me so much...blah..blah... Now I am feeling so insulted....now I realise he just wanna marry me for sex and money
.I had sacrifise so many things for him....I had to go to college at morning…. I came back from my college at evening......I have to complete my study....I can't sleep because of him. he had night shift sometimes ( he told me that )....he gave me missed call at night. n I had to wait for it till midnight....After getting missed call I called back him and we talked at night......sometimes he told me he want to sleep for 1 hour and i need to call him after 1 hour...so I was sitting in front of clock to wake him up exactly after 1 hour ... I had to go to college next day....still I did this for him ...I was madly in love...
I saved my money for tifin ...I didn't eat anything whole day in college....didn't took a bus but returned home walking.....and lied to my mom to give him money
I sacrifice my god carrer option for him. I sacrifise my dream carrer even. At that time it does not seem to me “ I AM SACRIFICING “ because I loved him soooooo much.
He asked several times for physical intimacy.....I did'nt agree but I felt guilty sometimes for that....Few month ago he told again .... We had a quarrel....then i said ok.......But I didn't mean sex ....He forced me to have sex..... He put my dress up forcefully.....then opened my bra.....I didn't expect it at all.... it was so fast I didn't understand anything....then he throws his body over me.....I realise I could do nothing If he did anything....He was too strong.....
I was begging him n crying.....He licked tears running down my face n kissed all over my body and embrace me tight...and kissed again and again...
then I felt he puts his pants a little down....I felt his **** on me...I felt so bad..
Then I realized what was comming ..... I was afraid of pain, pregnancy....lots of things....my mom told me not to do this .....I applied all my power and pushed him.....He asked then...Will u let me or not ?? I firmly said no....he was soo angry.....I said then I love you but I can't do it now.. he said it's ok....but next time I have to give myself completely to him...He does not care about me at all. Only thing he cares about was his physical satisfaction . He told I have to satisfy him.
I didn't say anything.........He told me he was virgin , he was waiting for me for almost 2 and 1/2 years n he can't control himself anymore....I felt that he loves me so much that he sacrifices his virginity for these years.....
now I am so depressed, so insulted.... he could gift me lots of deseases (STD) !!!!
I am still virgin . I felt sooooooo insulted that I was naked in front of him once. I just can't breathe at night now. I want to kill him with a chopper…I can give myself to that person who truly loves me , cares about me, respect my opinion may be he is not agree with me…but respect that….He doesn't deserve me n my love at all.
I was genuine from the very beginning . I didn't care how much gift he gave me ..I just expect ture heart. He didn't even gave me small earings, flower, didn't wish me happy birthday.....At the begining he gave me chocolate, on my first birthday in this relation he gave me gift....that was formality.....coz when he realise I didn't care about those....He behave he is luckly he didn't have to spend money for me rather I gave him money every time......He pretend too busy if I asked him about birthday wishing.....I don't like to force anyone.....u can't get love forcefully...If i forced he can gave me gift but I think no spontinuous heart is involved in that....so I didn't need money..gift in that way.....I thought he was my soul mate…..our eternal love……we’ll live together till we die n we’ll die together……I was soooo childish !!!!!
I knew all about him from another person who knows about both of us……He told me that he doesn’t have my number otherwise he would inform me all about these n warrened me not to get involved with him…….he is a 3rd class guy…. I would be senseless if I heard all about him…… my “ boyfriend “ is a cheater….. he cheated on different people……….so many girls……his father married second time an younger girl n lived in another place….but my “ boyfriend “ told me that his father was missing for 7 years n they consider him dead .
My “ boyfriend “ even misinformed about me to that person ( he is like my elder brother ) that I knew all about my “ boyfriend “ n about his marriage n affairs still I want to continue with him to have fun !!!!!! I was shocked .
I told him that my “ boyfriend “ took huge amout of money almost everytime for different reasons……mom’s operation, someone’s cancer…….lots of reasons.
He told me all those are nothing but fake stories….He is a lier…cheater….he adviced me to stay away from him n stop contacting him…..my “ boyfriend “ cheated on him also….He also told me that my “ boyfriend “'s wife can not be pregnant n can’t be a mother….she is the main earning member in his family……Now I understand why my “ boyfriend “ want to marry me….for sex, baby, my good job….
He would torture me If he married me.
My “ boyfriend “ recently bought bike….he informed me about it…n asked me to pay the E.M.I……I paid it every month gladly coz I was doing it for my boyfriend .
When I told him that I paid the E.M.I then he informed me it’s my “ boyfriend “’s
wife who took loan for his bike…..she made the down payment I guess now….n I paid the E.M.I…..
I don’t know whether my “ boyfriend “ is involved in some **** business …… I didn’t asked him .
He told me that he called me sister so he will protect me from my “ boyfriend “ n I can call him anytime if I need to talk to him .He adviced me to concentrate on my carrer right now n forget the whole as soon as possible that will help me….he told me I am still a child. I didn’t know how the real world is behaving…
I don’t want to hurt my parents…..now I am felling pretty much pain in my heart......He called me continuously for past 2 months from different numbers but I didn't pick it up.....
I don’t know what u are thinking about me.....what type of girl I am…..I don’t want to marry anyone in my whole life….coz I’m afraid to get involved…… It hurt sooooooo much……I know all the people are not same but still I hate boyes now. I just wanna go back to mom's womb ...... that's the only safest place in the world for me... no one can harm there........I think I should die....can anyone tell me what was my fault ????