Simple Yet Desisive


It would spare me having to rectify my mother's mistake

Would spare me the endless walk a mile to move an inch situation trying to live up to the potential others think i have, trying to live at all

It would spare my the agony of being alive the slights tongues slings and arrows of others

Save others the agony of dealing with me at all, save the pain the heartache the frustration the disappointment and despair of many 

Save me the knowledge, the knowing that a persons first taste of love of trust was a lie 

Save me the discovery that there is no point in dreaming, hardly one in thinking 

Save me the torment of seeing what is and knowing what could be 

Pull me away from waking up again to be nothing and meaningless to the world at large, waking up again to wear the yolk of others mistakes, waking again to confusion

Spare us all the heartbreak 

Spare me the weight of fixing it now ever and too late   

tulick tulick
31-35, F
14 Responses Oct 21, 2008

you can't and the people who can won't

Me too,<br />
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I know how hard you try, I know how smart you are, and believe me, I know you deserve that,<br />
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I wish I could do something about it

i just want to live my life and take care of myself

Well, it's just a random world,<br />
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Someone is born blind and deaf and can make a difference,<br />
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Someone is born healthy and can't make his/her living!<br />
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Life is not fair, just a random sequence,<br />
<br />
someone gets to be the president because his father was one,<br />
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Someone can't be anything because he was born to a poor family,<br />
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Really few people (less than 100 in the history) could change their destiny,

but most people get to take care of themselves and if they don't its because they live in 3rd world countries or milerterist regimes that don't have their people in mind

I am so sorry that you feel that way,<br />
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I used to wished I was never born,<br />
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But then I realized there is no meaning to life, and there are few people, hundreds in billions, who make a difference in the world, so I am just a nobody like billions of nobodies, <br />
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Not everyone gets to be the star.

you don't get it i'm no living for other people <br />
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but becaause of this life you so want me to apreciate i can't even provide for myself

i used to feel the same way. you need to live foryouself. dont try to please others youll never make them happy. live for you become the pearson youve always wanted to be. you were given life for a reason even if you cant see it yet dont waste it. the more life hurt the harder it gets the more you can appreciate it. do me a favor find a piece of wilderness even if yopu have to drive to find it take an mp3 pla<x>yer or go without one but walk around for at leats an hour and notice the small things. the veins in the leaves hey way the light reflect off them the dirt teaming with life. i know how you feel i really do and if you ever need to talk to somone without judgment or criticizm you can messege me :)

or not

I so understand you , I have the same wish too but unfortunately there are no fairies or easy ways out ... that's life you don't have to like but you do have to live it !


I don't really believe that about anyone. I think if you honestly, truly wanted to die, you would just do it. You wouldn't be too scared. So... I don't think you want to die.

the answer to your question is guts or should i say a lack there of

Okay.... I've been reading your stuff and... most people that truly are this depressed just kill themselves. Why haven't you yet? If you haven't, there has to be at least something that makes you want to stay. Can't you focus on that?