Getting Hit By a Drunk Driver..... (my Pov
The night of the accident I was going to go see my sister perform. My parents offered to drive me there- but I was running late and decided to just meet them there (i was getting ready to go out later that night). The concert started at 730 and I had arrived around 7 to the subway closest to the church. I have no memory of even walking to the crosswalk where I was hit- I have retroactive amnesia.
I was crossing the street (it was rainy and dark), when the car hit me from the right side. When the car hit me, I flew 5 feet into the air and when I hit the pavement, my head took the full force of the fall. As well as my shoulder, elbow, tailbone and right hip . According to a witness (who turned out to be a friend of my sisters) I was concious and talking. I gave him the name of my parents and told him to find them in the church (that was literally on the other side of the street- I almost made it!
The guy who found me really helped me out- and I thank God he was there. He saw the ticket on the ground to the event and knew that I was going to the church. My parents were found,and the ambulance called. I have no memory of any of this happening- including most of my time in the emergency room.
I arrived at the hospital at 8 that night, and was later released at 4 am. I was in a neck brace and I was so freaked out...it literally felt like the bones of my body were protruding my flesh. Because I landed on my head--- I had to do a CT scan, before treating anything because they wanted to make sure I didn't damage my brain. I just remember crying and praying that i wasn't deformed. When they stapled my head wounds, they injected my head with 12 needles and closed with with 11 staples.THe next few days were hell...and I still cant really lie on my head without discomfort. But I am on t3s and muscle relaxers. Unfortunately...for me...the worst is yet to come. I have 6 months of intensive physiotherapy. Its really hard for me, because I look alright, I think I can do all the things I used to be able to do with ease. I get tired easily and am sore in most parts of my body. Somethings.. are permanent. I only have 80% of movement and flexibility in my elbow and left shoulder and with physio, I hope that comes back. Slowly, my body is failing me as i come out of 'hyper shock' (the body's way of protecting itself from a major accident) and everyday i notice something new. My tailbone hurts every time I sit down, and my back hurts when I move.
I don't really want to show anyone my fears or pains (because it is not that bad- im just not used to being in any physical vulnerability), but it isn't helping ignoring it either. My family is so supportive, but i feel so useless.
And I can't really show everyone else how scared i feel- because I don't want them to treat me any differently. I feel so alone and I don't know who to turn with. My biggest fear is telling my friends how I feel and them not being able to let It go. I just don't know where the balance lies.
Ps: If anyone has any advice on head wounds... please help me out. After removing the staples...the wounds still hurt SO MUCH. They aren't infected (I went to the doctor) but it still stings and the skin is raised in all the areas where the staples were.