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I Dont Think You Know How Demoralizing It Is Til It Happens To You

its funny to see the scenes of Daddy in Keeping up Appearances riding the bike in the nude chasing after a young woman or Dads Army or 90something but when you get smelly old men like whines cracking on to you and your only 10 or 20 its so defeating.

I was only 4 or 5 when my great uncle Bill was molesting me and he was 60 or 70 and a hopeless drunk vomiting everywhere shaking with the DDts and the effects of server alcoholism from the war and all his trauma... having epileptic fits everywhere

its upsetting ...


then my neighbor pull the act on me and I wish I had a nice young boyfriend to tell him to keep his hands off me ... it breaks me down into tears 

just like with Ron sexually assaulting me and IM SICK OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
czaristacrystals czaristacrystals 36-40, F 1 Response Feb 24, 2012

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ALL THROUGH MY TEENS AND 20S I FELT SO ASHAMED AND DIRTY BY WHAT THEY WERE DOING TO ME.... I HAD SO MUCH SELF HATE INSIDE OF ME .... I USED TO HIDE AWAY AND DIDN'T WANT ANY MAN LOOKING AT ME... I COULDN'T BARE TO BE TOUCHED BUT I DREAMED OF BEING LOVED BY A NICE YOUNG MEN .. AND NO ONE CAME ... NO ONE WHO I DESIRED CAME ALONG.