I'm So Tired ..... I Don't Know How Strong One Person Is Expected to Be!
On December 25th 2005 my life changed forever when an unknown driver crossed the center line and hit me head on. I was very fortunate to have the life saving support of some amazing paramedics who knew my only chance at survival was to break protocal and take me directly to VGH a trauma center. This coupled with with an angel or two that were with me made the difference between life or death. Being the holiday and due to the fact that police could not locate my next of kin I spent those touch go hours with a chaplin. My family finally found me late Christmas afternoon.
Since then lifes been in slow motion. My first hospital stay was over a month with allot of that time in ICU. I've been in and out of the hospital many times since then. I was so happy back then. At the beggining I was so happy to be ALIVE thankful to be breathing I was so sure everything could be worked out......
It's almost three years and I'm getting tired. So much has happened and I'm trying really hard to stay possitive. It's hard to stay possitive when you've had ten surgeries. I've been in chronic pain since the accident. I had every bone in my face broken and the piece just don't seem to fit together the same way. I don't recognize the face in the miror. I know I should be happy I'm alive but sometime I feel like a stranger in my body. I feel like a stranger in my life its all slowly dissapearing. Some days I'm ok with it other days I'm just not. My worlds just so messes up. I know its temporary but it still not ok. For as small my life has has gotten in some ways the relationships I do have, have become richer then ever before. I feel truely bless for all I have. I love my friend and family so much. One of the greatest things to come out of this accident is my bestfriend and lifeline my dog Floyd. I was urgered to get him to help me. Floyd.... he brings a smile to my face and give a reason to get up and moving each day.
As for the who did this? Jaggitt is the coward who crossed the center line and hit me. He was charged with the crime six months after the accident. He lawered up with a high priced lawer and has been playing games for the last two years. He has pled guily to one count but retracted one of his pleas so we have to wait to go go back to trail in December of this year . It will be three years I will never be the same I have a brain injury, I have facial difiguration, chronic pain, phycholgical pain, the list could go on and on but why complain and the most he will get is two years most likely house arest. Where is the justist? How can someone just leave a person like an animal on the road to die? Where has our humanity gone?