A Little Something For Everyone

I was in an abusive relationship for over for years.He is the father of my beautiful and brilliant son, the first person I had ever moved out and/or in with, I had many of my first life experiences with this man.
Let me tell you. You can try to change yourself and mold yourself into the perfect stepford wife but you will never ever be good enough no matter how hard you try, so ladies, never boher trying, I learned that you are who you are and no one especially not the man in your life should expect you to be anything else other then yourself!
We had many break ups and each time I went back (I am sure it is for the same reason everyone goes back) They say they will change.....
Well when change remains the same after somany months let alone years.
You should throw in the towel! If this man/women really does love you and does not just see you as something that can be used, abused and easily munipulated into what they demand out of you. If this partner really leanred to understand how much of a blessing you were in his/her life then he/she will try , and want to change for the better.
The only issue is deciding on whether you could ever trust or respect this person ever again? How can you let go of so many years of someone treating you like you meant nothing?
If you really felt for this peron then in the long run, after alot of *** kissing and counselling (on the abusers end) then you will try again as well.
No one can tell you they understand if they really do not, and never rely on a friend who has not a clue to what you had gone through to give you the advice to need, trust your instincts, no one knows better then you!
I am myself facing an ex who is telling me he is changing for the beter and wants to try. and you know what? I know inside that he hasn't changed a bit since the moment our child was born :)
and that is intinct and oh lord im sticking with it.
Good luck to everyone on here. Its not fare to be in our shoes.
No one deserves it not even the mouthiest person on here.
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2 Responses Jan 11, 2013

Well every day since I lived with him then I would say everyday, I wanted to leave him because he terrorist destroying girlfriend's relationship with their family because he likes to have control of what his girlfriend does, so he will beat her with out caring about them. He punched me in the stomach one day because he was mad that I was late from church one day. He has beat up on every woman, he has been with, he has beat on animals before,he has put all of his woman down with his words and that sad to me. He is a Narcissist and he needs help too, I wanted to leave him, but I could not leave him because he threatened to kill hiself, if I left him and he would of made me watch him kill hi self and I should of done that so every women's pain can go away without him here, sorry. His name is Buddy K Harris that lives in Woodward, Oklahoma and he works for the City Of Woodward, so be careful and stay away from him too. He threatened to get me in trouble and he said if you get me in trouble then I would punch myself in the fave so I can blame you and you would go to jail too.Well you know since, I took to my boyfriend to court I feel like I am free from the abuse and live my life with happiness. You know you living with a man that calls you are no good hooker that sleeps around then it does not make you feel good. Then you are secretly get beat in behind closed doors does it make no better. He is secretly talking to your cousin telling her that he would break up with me to be with my cousin and he never said he wanted to break with him. I secretly wanted nothing to do with him after the six days I was living with him because he was drunk one night and made a dent by the door by my face and he threw stuff at me. Now, he has restraining order on him for a year. I told the judge that his little girls saw him hit me in the stomach and they saw the bruises their dad gave me the next day. He got in my face, I kicked him, pushed him and I told him to get of my face, but he wouldn't do it Then he came after cornered me between the bed and hit me in the arms too. He corned me in closets.

Well every day since I lived with him then I would say everyday, I wanted to leave him because he terrorist destroying girlfriend's relationship with their family because he likes to have control of what his girlfriend does, so he will beat her with out caring about them. He punched me in the stomach one day because he was mad that I was late from church one day. He has beat up on every woman, he has been with, he has beat on animals before,he has put all of his woman down with his words and that sad to me. He is a Narcissist and he needs help too, I wanted to leave him, but I could not leave him because he threatened to kill hiself, if I left him and he would of made me watch him kill hi self and I should of done that so every women's pain can go away without him here, sorry. His name is Buddy K Harris that lives in Woodward, Oklahoma and he works for the City Of Woodward, so be careful and stay away from him too. He threatened to get me in trouble and he said if you get me in trouble then I would punch myself in the fave so I can blame you and you would go to jail too.Well you know since, I took to my boyfriend to court I feel like I am free from the abuse and live my life with happiness. You know you living with a man that calls you are no good hooker that sleeps around then it does not make you feel good. Then you are secretly get beat in behind closed doors does it make no better. He is secretly talking to your cousin telling her that he would break up with me to be with my cousin and he never said he wanted to break with him. I secretly wanted nothing to do with him after the six days I was living with him because he was drunk one night and made a dent by the door by my face and he threw stuff at me. Now, he has restraining order on him for a year. I told the judge that his little girls saw him hit me in the stomach and they saw the bruises their dad gave me the next day. He got in my face, I kicked him, pushed him and I told him to get of my face, but he wouldn't do it Then he came after cornered me between the bed and hit me in the arms too. He corned me in closets.