My Current PredicamentOkay, I'm going to try to explain this the best that I possibly can.
I met my current boyfriend during my freshman year of high school. He was funny, friendly, and did not, in any way, seem to be dangerous or abusive. He had a girlfriend when I met him. We didn't start dating however until the day after christmas of my sophomore year. Everything was perfect. He was nice and sweet and I loved him so much. We'd been talking all day long for weeks already and I felt comfortable with him.I was happy.
However things changed. He got upset because I didn't wanna have sex with him (we'd been dating for six months around this time). And everything went downhill from there. We started fighting all the time over little things. Most of the time, it led to fighting about sex. He became scary. He would hit things around me. I was worried he would hit me, but he always stayed far away.
Now it is my senior year, and thing have esculated even more. We've broken up multiple times, but the longest time only lasted four to five days. My best friend is constantly trying to get me to leave him, but I never listen. I try though. I just make excuses for him.
My problem now is that I'm a senior. I'm in the top ten of my class. I got accepted to a good college. However, he wants me to go to a smaller college around where I live so we can get an apartment together. I've fought with him over this for months now. And I just gave him and told him sure. But I don't want to. I wanna go to this other college. He is constantly argueing with me over silly little things. Constantly jealous of any time I spend with anyone else. I can't do anything or have anything secret cause he won't let me. It's hard.
Another thing is that I love him. I do. But I know this relationship isn't healthy. So what do I do? I can't seem to make up my mind. I can't bring myself to choose anything. Help?