She's Trying To Talk Me Into Coming Back

I love her, I sincerely do, but I can't go back. Here is what she said in her e-mails after I left:-

"you lay down in bed with me and tell me you love me.....how can you be so heartless? I love you with everything in me and I am doing everything you ask, why am I not good enough. Why are you going to do this to me and charlotte? you told me you were trying....this isn't trying, this is running away and being a coward. please talk to me....you are breaking my heart, please."

Then, "please stop ignoring me....please stop hurting me and just talk to me. i love you please just talk to me thats all i want. what did i do? please hugo , I'm begging you to please talk to me. i am sorry for whatever i have done"

Next, "if you don't love me or want to be with me thats fine but please give me the descentcy to talk to me and tell me whats going on so I can have some closure. It absolutely crushes me that you laid here holding me telling me you love me knowing it was the last time and you robbed me of that."

Then, "your mother is trying to get ahold of you, i assume you have already told or planned this out . I'm sure it doesn't matter but please know you are ripping my heart out. i love you more then you could ever imagine and your throwing that away. all I've ever wanted was to be happy and be enough for you but that will never happen.i will leave you alone but please be aware that the person that loves you more than anything and believes in you will no longer be around and you have crushed my heart, soul and spirt, i will always love you and cherish everything we had. i am so very grateful for everything you have done for me, not only am i losing you but charlotte as well, i loved her as though she were my own and it breaks my heart that everything she knew and loved is now being taken from her again. i will never stop loving either of you. i hope you find everything i found in you in someone else. you were everything i ever hoped and prayed for and were the best thing that has ever happened to me and i hope you can find that. you deserve nothing but the best and apparently i can't be that for you. i love you always and forever, goodbye"

And finally, "I can't force you to love me but at one point I would like to believe you loved me when you asked me to marry you. That was the happiest day of my life, when I looked in your eyes and saw our future. I can deal with you not loving me or wanting to be with me but please if you ever loved me at all please give me the respect to talk to me. I would like to think I meant something to you because you meant my whole world to me. You have stuff here, what do you want me to do with it? If I knew that was the last time I would get to hold you with a future in sights, I would have made sure you knew how much you mean to me but at this point I don't know if it matters. Please lets be adults about this and please talk to me."

... Oh, and "I need to know what to do with your stuff? Thee is no reason to not be an adult about this." ... and "please hugo, i just want to speak to you, no tears or anything. i would like a little closure please at least give me that"

I truly love this woman. I do. I want to grow old with her. The trouble is, we're bad for one another. We tear one another apart. We physically and emotionally abuse one another. The cycle must end. I am ending it!