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I Was Raped Twice As A Child

WHEN I WAS 7 I was rapped by my foster dad. I was asleep one early morning amd he came in and asked me if I wanted an ice cream, I had said yes not knowing what was about to affect my life forever. So I followed him into the camper where the ice cream was he picks me up and throws me down on the bed i (I had thought he was messing with me) and then he says take your clothes off. I asked him many times why but he only responded just do it be for I hurt you worse. So I jump up start running but he catches me and slams me down on the bed and rips my clothes off gets rope so he could tie my head feet and arms together.I start screaming and he yells back saying if you do not shut up I will come sit on you until you learn to shut up. After he rapes me for about 4 hours he hands over the ice cream. But then he says follow me and so I do, he takes me over to the computer and makes me sit I. His lap with his clothes off and my pants off so he could hurt me more, but not only does he do that but he shows me some very bad adult stuff. And then I try to run but he comes to get me he finds the metal handcuffs he has and puts them on my. Hands and then throws me on the bed and goes to get somethin liquidly and puts it all over but especially in the lower parts of me. What ever it was it hurt so bad to the point I started to cry and then he tells me to shut. up you baby apnd I'm going to rape you (me) extra hard and painful while I'm bounded and have nothing t o do but cry for the pain but just makes matters worse. From, SARA
sara3131 sara3131 13-15 21 Responses Jun 6, 2011

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The same thing happned to me but it happened everyday for two years.

so sad...

pls share it wit your family..this real abusing

so sad to here it...i feel so sorry for you

I pray that you are no longer with family. If so, you have to tell a trusted adult so they can move you away from the situation. You shouldn't have to endure that type of life.

That is SOOOOO sad! Tell someone!

I lived a life knowing nothing but pain for the first 13 years my dad was physically and mentally abusive.i was always left in cars w/my grandparents or babysitters.i was then molested by a baby sitter around the age of 3/4 yrs old maybe 5.then i was molested again for two to then at 13 my parents divorced and my mom met my stepfather.i was then molested for three months by my stepfather every night almost when i was 15 ,he used to try and force me to drink alcohol then molest me...i reported him only to be put in child shelter christmas day for a month.they all got away w/everything they did to me... I was forced to live back w/ my abusive father till i was 18.but my stepmom started hitting me to.i ran away two weeks before my 18th birthday.ive lived with friends from age 17 till i was 26.over 8 homes.14 schools.never graduated.im 36 yrs now .And its destroyed me.mentally emotionally etc...still had horrible relationships throughout my life.but i have three little kids now . A husband whose never home .cause he travels for work.is not an angel by far.and i feel like i just hit a brickwall in front of me.

You have so much life ahead of you. Be encouraged. Its not too late to get your GED. Find a trade you might like,once you start making your own money,you'll become a bit more confident. Use the time that your husband is away to work on your life. I hope this helps.

WTF ??? that sick *** bastard. idk what goes on in his twisted assed phycotic mind that makes him want to harm a child like that but some one needs to lock that maniac the hell up !!

Dads like that are soon to be found in prison, if somebody will act... The reason why these ************* are roaming free on the streets is because some are afraid that if they do something about it, they will be hurt, or worse, killed. But I say, if you could do something to make a change, why not do so? One less rapist foster dad is already a big thing. These ************* rapist foster dads should be in prison for the rest of their lives. Let the law deal with them... Better report the ************. If nothing happens, oh well, I don't know if you're a Christian, but I'd say "Pray always".<br />
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P.S. Sorry for the profanity, rapist fathers and foster-fathers and other rapists make me furious, this is because someone I know got raped, and then her throat was slit. She was left for dead on a riverbank near our place.

Its okay. I've been through something similar. <br />
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This is the way I think of it.<br />
All the pain, all those terrible memories, everytime you think of them, you are reopening that wound. If you try to ignore them, the scar tissue builds and soon it becomes impossible to reopen it. That is what I have done.

I disagree. I did that for a long time after I was raped when I was 4. I was able to live normally and happily because i had blocked things out, but I'm in my mid 30's now and I must tell you, something might trigger all the memories you had "forgotten" to come rushing back. For example, when my child turned 4.. It all comes rushing back clear as day at some point, I believe this is called a "flashback," but it doesn't come and go, once you've re-lived what you'd put away (not really forgotten), it's there to stay and there is a whole host of problems that come along with it.

Its okay. I've been through something similar. <br />
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This is the way I think of it.<br />
All the pain, all those terrible memories, everytime you think of them, you are reopening that wound. If you try to ignore them, the scar tissue builds and soon it becomes impossible to reopen it. That is what I have done.

Hi<br />
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I'm from Portugal (so, sorry if you don't understand what I'm writting).<br />
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I had been molested all my life by a cousin and I was rapped 10 years ago (I was11) by a boyfriend I had.<br />
The only thing I can do is share my expirience with you... I never forgot it, it never stopped hurting me, I still think about it, I still have bad dreams sometimes (special if I'm in more stress).<br />
4 years ago I started a relashionship and I told him imidiattly what happened to me.<br />
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Do you wanna know what was his reaction?<br />
He hugged me!! And it felt so great!<br />
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We still together and loving each other even more. He respects me and sees me like a strong woman. I can't see me like that, but he does and that's great!<br />
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Tell him what happened and I'm shoure you'll see the great men you have with you. And you'll not feel so lonely... And, above all, he'll feel that he is special because you're telling him.<br />
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Good luck and be strong!

Thank you sooo much for telling her that!!! im sure its going to help through this!! THANK YOU!!!

Well...im pretty sure he has got to be a nice guy be a your boyfriend,im sure you wouldnt have picked a hardcore guy...and instead,choose a sweet guy right? i think you should tell him you need to tell him something very very important,i also think you should ask him to you promise to be your friend no matter what happends in the future in if you guys broke up, i think then you should hug him and tell him the full story....if he still sticks around and helps and supports you...hes the one &lt;3<br />
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you can do this :D my girlfriend told me her story and everything turned out fine... please be sure your guy is a sweet guy and not a guy who will take advantage of girls,<br />
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And please remember...even if you guys break up because of your past or your guys break up for other reasons in the future...please please please remember to keep moving foward and you have become more open about your past and your recovering (because not every girl has the guts to tell their boyfriend's their childhood abuse......only the special ones can :D)

Hey im sorry....im dealing with a few problems myself right now.....and having lack of sleep and reading a lot of stories and trying to give people hope....so please forgive me..its a bit difficult for me to concentrate.....<br />
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remember...he cant hurt you..if he ever did,you can send him to jail.dont be afraid of him, look at your SELF!!! you've told people,you join this website and wrote your story,and accepted it and whats more is....you have boyfriend you truly are someone special!! your moving foward!! your doing great...keep it up :D and dont worry...with your courage!!! you can keep moving foward!!!<br />
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im always here for you! im your friend for life,if you ever need anything...im here for you,sadly i wont be able to give you support instantly,sorry....but i hope i can give you support from posting replies.... stay strong :D

Here's something you need to know...no matter what you did or said,he still would have went with it and done it...i know because....my girlfriend.....well....something like that happened to her too....except,she decided to resist him..and he used force on her......PLEASE dont worry everything is gona be alright....my girlfriend took 10 years to open up....<br />
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please dont ever think of it as your fault....no way in hell it could ever be your fault....your strong,i know you can to this....i wish i could be half as strong as you...your simply amazing<br />
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Dont give up hope

he cant do that..he will be behind bars..and no matter what he does to you..you can always send him back to jail if he does....you can do this...

YOU CAN BUT HIM IN JAIL RIGHT NOW FOR WHAT HE DID TO YOU AT 7 ALL YOU HAVE TO DO IS CALL THE COPS NOW AND TELL THEM AND PUT HIM AWAY HE WILL DO IT TO SOME ONE ELS OK BUT TELL SOME ONE NOW

Calm down....take a deep breath....you can do this..dont worry....if he tries doing anything to you...just tell him that your old enough to know whats going on,and if he does anything,you will go to the police.... if he still does somthing..JUST go to the police...if he hits or rapes you...you will have the evidence at your.......or wounds,so dont worry... you can do this!!! no matter what he says(like his gona kill you,or hurt you if you tell any1,its all lies...dont be scared,if he does ANYTHING go through with if and call the cops) dont give up faith

Calm down....take a deep breath....you can do this..dont worry....if he tries doing anything to you...just tell him that your old enough to know whats going on,and if he does anything,you will go to the police.... if he still does somthing..JUST go to the police...if he hits or rapes you...you will have the evidence at your.......or wounds,so dont worry... you can do this!!! no matter what he says(like his gona kill you,or hurt you if you tell any1,its all lies...dont be scared,if he does ANYTHING go through with if and call the cops) dont give up faith

Anyone with an exprience like this can contact me because I'm looking for someone to try to help me through it. And I'm only 13 now

Wats your email

I have nightmars about my foster dad because I told my guidance counselor about it and now I'm afraid of him coming to find me and raping me again for telling.