Not Sure

i was 9 and i had forgotten about it for a looong time. i have 2 brothers and they r much older but i always realized that i connected with one much more than the other and i never knew why. i had always been such a good student never getting anything less than an a and that year i got straight c's and i signed my parents names on report cards and weekly agenda signitures. i know this doesnt seem like anything major but it as extremly out of character for me. a couple months ago i started having nightmares and it was happening all again. this went on for weeks. finally one night i went out to a party and when i came home i was not drunk but i had drank and i told my dad everything. it was my brother and i was on the computer when he came in leaned my chair back and grabbed me down there. i always knew that molestation was wrong but that isnt what this seemed like to me. and i thought for a long time that i was making this up and that it actually never happened. i know now that it did happen but when i told my dad he told my mom and they both consoled me and my mom revealed to me that the reason that i do not have a relationship with my grandmother is because he had molested her until she was 8 and when she got the courage to tell her mom, my grandmother, she left him and they havnt spoken since. so i am curious as to why my family did not do anything and to why they still allow him to come over. i have a younger sister and he is no longer to stay the night here but i still cant wrap my head around why they have not cut all contact. 
blnd4eva1029 blnd4eva1029
18-21, F
2 Responses Aug 13, 2010

I do not undersand why my family will let their kids around the man who molesed me either or why they still love him to death and will not even come around me just because I am gay.

I do not undersand why my family will let their kids around the man who molesed me either or why they still love him to death and will not even come around me just because I am gay.