" Save Me!"

Well I don't know where to start really...It all started when I was in 3Rd grade so I was about 8 years old. My cousins had moved with my grandma from San Diego because they we're going through hard times with their mom being on drugs and couldn't take care of them at them time...so they moved with my grandma, I was excited because they we're my close cousins. Me and my siblings would go over my grandmas house and spend they night. All they girls slept in one room and all they boys slept in they next room while my grandma & grandpa would sleep in they room across from us with they door opened. One night I sleeping in they bed with my girl cousins and I woke up to some one touching me in private area...it was pitch black so I had no idea what was going on but I tried to fight my cousin off of me but it was useless cause he was way stronger than I was...I was only 8 at the time and he was 14, he would grab my hand and force me to touch his private part I was in tears begging him to stop, but he continued to touch me. I should of screamed but I don't know why I didn't. I would pinch him so he would stop but he would pinch me back even harder and laugh! (I ******* hate his laugh btw)I would do almost every thing to get him off of me, when he was done doing what ever he was doing to me he just walked out the room and I just lated there and cried house full of people and noone seemed to hear what was going on! Smh but the next morning I was so embarrassed to go down stairs but eventually I went down stairs and his *** greeted me with a crooked smile and he acted like nothing happened! It continued after that might went on till I was 10, never told a soul till last year. Found out I wasn't the only on being molested by this blue eyed demon...my sister & Lil cousin were being molested by him too...but they said it only happened once for them smh...I ******* hate him! I thought I had forgave him but I guess not...how can you forgive someone like that he was just a evil person with a ****** up head! He in jail now for murder he ain't getting out no time soon(Thank God). I do believe in karma and that's what he got. I don't go a day without thinking about what happened to me and how he RUINED my child hood...but it's only a lesson learned and when I do have kids I want to protect them from this what I had to go through...
CaptainSaveThisHOE CaptainSaveThisHOE
18-21, F
Jan 22, 2013