Slipping Away.....

I don't know what's left for me. Went to court and lost. Said I was looking for attention. :( Living with my Grandma, not wanting to leave her alone. We have no other family and no way out. Still live with the man who has molested me since I was a 5 year old, precious, innocent little boy with big dreams. Now I'm a 20 year old mess. My molester and I work a full-time job together and so I get to relive the memories every single day. It's the only way I can save money to escape the monster keeping my Grandma and I held captive. Will I ever get to live a normal life? Will my Grandma be able to pass with a smile on her face? What if I never make it alive at all? Will I ever meet my parents now? I never knew any affection other than a dirty gross man with his hands all over me. God, help me. I'm in your hands now. Was I born, just to die?
StaindSafePlace StaindSafePlace
18-21
1 Response Jan 11, 2013

I am so sorry to read all the pain in this story. I don't understand your circumstances, but invite you to continue writing here on EP as a way to vent and maybe get some advice. Sharing can help you heal. Keep looking forward. Make goals, lots of them, and never let them go. Think big.