If Only I Knew What This Sob Was Doing I Would Have Reacted Differently

In 1996 when I was 9 Years old my dad got an assignment to Dubai to live there for two years. We made friends with a petrol attendant and invited him home for dinner. Then he came regularly and we used to hangout alot. In 1997 when I was 10 years we decided to go for a swim and next thing is I felt my underwear getting removed and his penis entering my bum. Not knowing that he was molesting me. I did feel a bit of pain but I ignored it. Then the one night My mother was downstairs and I was in Toilet finishing up and going to have a shower I see him opening his clothes and soaping his penis and inserting it in my Bum! This was extremely painful. I kept quite trying to hold my pain in as I thought I tore my skin when I was in the toliet. When I finish shower I remember telling my mother my bum is sore. She thought that I tore my skin or had a painful stool. Then In 1999 We left Dubai to come back to South Africa. Then in 2003 when I was 13 Years old I was in Sex Ed class and they were explaining about anal sex and how painful it can be. It was when I was shocked that I got molested when I was in Dubai! The Painful memories came back how he held me and inserted his penis. I was gone quite for the whole day. People at school asked me what's wrong and I said nothing as I was too scared to mention it. Then every night I used to google molesting and read how people dealt with it as I was scared how would my parents take this info if I told them and they mustn't think they were bad parents or they mustn't think I'm lying. Then in 2004 when I was 17 Years old I started watching Desperate Housewives and in 2006 when I was 19 I burst into tears and told my parents listen something bad happened to me in Dubai! My Parents were shocked and said Why didn't you tell what happened ? I said I was scared. Then as time went on I remember My cousin hating this guy and I used to say he is a nice guy but mean while she was a sign to say he is bad news. Then in 2007 when I was 20 years old An actress from Desperate Housewives called Eva Longoria was telling her story in the show and was saying you have to speak about it otherwise it's gonna tear you apart. After she said that The next day I booked myself for all the STD tests and said whatever the results are i'm gonna hope everything is OK. Two Weeks Later the doctor phoned and said everything was Negative. I was relieved I started telling my close friends about the story and it built me to be a better person. I Just hope that one day they will catch this monster and put him behind bars for what he did.
speed179 speed179
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5 Responses Jan 22, 2013

It wasn't your fault and lots of time parents are squeamish about discussing sex with their children, so that when something like what happened to you happens, the child does not even realize s(he) is being molested. I was molested by a man when i was a boy, but i didn't really know what was happening. I just didn't know anything about sex. Fortunately, it didn't really have any impact on my life, but what happened to me paled in comparison to what happened to you. But at least you were not infected, and that is a good thing. This way you can work on the psychological part of what happened to you and not have to worry about physical illness from his abuse of you.

At 10 years old you didn't realise that letting a man stick his penis in your anus was a wrong thing to do? :s your parents should have explained things better sexually and maybe this would have been avoided.

Sorry child wait I'm a child sorry girl I hope u are getting on with life some of us never do I hope u do

this story saddens me and i hope they catch this monster and you can put this behind you and have a happy fullfilling life.

I hope so to

I wonder how one handles life and stay sane and become an enlighten person. It is weird trip but very rewarding. I meditated, stepped back from the crowd, and had experiences where I was overwhelmed in peace. The happiness gave me God-awareness. Still working on myself but peace has its hand on my shoulder Thanks for your story.

You just have to put it behind you!