My Younger Sister Molested MeI remember one day coming home from school - my sister must have been in kindergarten, because she was aleady home - that made her 5 - I was two years older, but she was bigger than me. Something had happened between her and a younger boy who my mom was babysitting. I remember asking what happened and being told it was none of my business. After that - one night my sister came to my room - she asked if she could sleep with me. Once she got into my bed she said she was going to pretend to be a puppy and lick me all over - she started to lick me on my face and arms and stomach. She then started to remove my underware - I said no - she said yes - that she was going to - she pushed me back and started to lick my ****. After that night she would come back frequently - she would bring a pencil or pen and insert it in her vagina and ask me to move it around while she laid on top of me and licked me. She tried a couple of times to get me to put things into myself - but it hurt so I wouldn't let her.
She would put things into herself often - we would be sitting watching TV and I would hear noises and turn around and see her with a pencil up her vagina she would pull her underware aside and be moving the pencil around. She threatened that if I told what she was doing - that she was going to tell them it was my fault - that she was the favorite and they would blame me - she was probably right about that. They allowed her to abuse me in other ways - they would make us bathe together and she would push my head under the water and sit on my back - they thought that was funny. She would put me in the toybox and sit on the lid so I couldn't get out. So when she told me that they would believe her - she was right.
I tried hiding from her - I would sit on the stairs until she fell asleep so if she came into my room I wouldn't be there. I remember telling them she was coming into my room - and I didn't want her there - they ignored me. She told people in school too - that she was licking me there - she brought a friend of ours home - the older sister of the boy she had molested when she was in kindergarted - and took her to her room - on the floor - behind the bed - and molested her - and then did it again - to another sister at their house.
I remember being in hthe bathtub and feeling dirty - I wanted hot water there to try to clean her off me - my mother walked in to the bathroom and saw me running water over it - she yelled at me and called me dirty - thought I was doing it for sexual gratification - didn't even bother to talk to me about it - but told my dad and sisters that I had done that. After that I knew I couldn't tell - they wouldn't listen to me - they would blame me.
The abuse continued until I was 11 or 12 and moved into a different room with a lock on the door. Then I started locking my door every night and it stopped.
I'm confinced that she was molested by someone - I'm even convinced that my parents knew about it - but they just keep secrets and as a result of their secrets at least three of us got hurt.
I tried to talk to my sister about it later - and told that we should talk about what happened - and why - I'm convinced that she was molested and wanted to help her - she just got pissed - said I am the one that molested her and the conversation stopped there.
I'm sure that she's lied to the rest of my family - she's liked and they are all great friends with her while I'm the black sheep - so I'm sure they got the same story that she tried to get me to believe when I confronted her.