I Don't Know What To Do

I am 20 years old and having a very difficult time with dealing with what happened to me years ago. My brother who is 8 years older than I am experimented with me when I was around 5 years old. I don't remember exactly what happened but I know that things happened. I came to the realization this year that what happened to me wasn't right and I confided in my boyfriend who I love very much. He didn't understand how that could have happened and how I still want my brother in my life. Deep down I know it was a mistake and I still love my brother. My boyfriend told me I should tell my family about what happened. They had the reaction that I wish my boyfriend had. They were disturbed by it but were there to support me and my brother and be there for us. They wanted us to figure it out and get past what happened. My boyfriend told me that if I don't get rid of my brother he won't be with me. I tried to explain to him that I wasn't raped like he thinks, and that it was a big mistake. I even talked to my older brother about it and he said he is ashamed of what happened and apologized to me. He never harmed me or threatened me. He just didn't realize what he was doing when we were kids. I have read a lot of stories similar to mine. I know what happened isn't normal but I believe everyone can get past the terror. Now I don't know what to do about my boyfriend because I don't want to lose him and I don't want to lose my brother. I need advice with what to do about this. I want to fix this situation rather than just saying he isn't worth it and leave. I want him to be there for me no matter what. I haven't talked to my brother in months because my boyfriend told me to stay away from him. I know he's being controlling because he loves me and wants the best for me. Help me please!
An Ep User An EP User
Jan 11, 2013