Molested By My CousinI was also molested by my cousin between the ages of 6 and eight. I am in my mid 30's now and I still remember the events surrounding the abuse as if it were yesterday. I'm not sure how much the abuse has affected me, although I will admit that I have problems that I think may be related to the incidents. The thing is, is that I have never been open with any therapist or counselor about what happened to me. I guess I feel as though I would be betraying my cousin if I were to disclose this sort of information to a complete stranger. I also feel like why bother with it since this is something that happened so many years ago. But as I try to move on with my life, I find myself thinking a lot about what took place. It bothers me, but I don't know what to do. I feel disrespected by my family because when I finally did try and tell another family member, I felt like they did not believe me. I almost feel as though it should have happened to me. My cousin has never been confronted and I somehow feel cheated because of the simple fact that I am here living , trying my best to deal with the effects of what the molestation may have had on me, while my cousin is somewhere living out his happy life, unaffected at all by what he did. I'm a little jealousy to say the least. I'm not sure what I want to happen. I guess I just want to know what damage being molested has caused me, if any, so that I can deal with it appropriately. As for my cousin, I know that I would never oust him like that, and besides, this happened when he was only a teenager so I'm not too sure if he is to blame. Maybe someone was doing to him and he decided to experiment with me and my cousin. Anyways, I guess I will try to accept the fact that In was molested and that it may have messed me up a little and I guess move on from there. I am grateful to have been able to share my story. Feel much better now.
everwindy34 31-35 6 Responses 1 Jan 11, 2011