Innocence Taken Too Fast

I was about 2 or 3 when I got molested. Pretty young right? Well all I could remember is I was playing with one of my cousins who is like 4 years older than me. & we were playing in his house my family was there and so was his . All I remember is we were in the garage playing hide and go seek I think. Me and him were partners. Then all I could remember is he started to touch me inappropriately. I knew this wasn't right. I was confused and scared. The next thing I could remember is telling my dad about it. Then I don't remember anything after that but what I do remember is we didn't speak to that side of the family for a very long time. I'm 21 now and I noticed that as I get older i begin to think about this situation more. I don't know what to do... I've been feeling sad,no energy,a lite bit depressed, embarrassed... I mean this guy isn't in jail or anything. I see him once in a while and acts as if nothing happened. I would like to hear some feed back please on what I can do to clear my mind about this and move on. I have a boyfriend who sort of knows what happened to me but to be honest I'm embarrassed what happened to me... Please take the time to give me some advice I would appreciate it. Thanks.
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2 Responses Jan 22, 2013

We, as human beings, are strong. What gives us strength is our spiritual center. We meditate and pray. It is important to see the happiness and glory of ourselves. This gives us the love and forgiveness that is necessary to face the events that happen in life.

Well, I guess you sort of come to the realization that "it" happened. Right now your mind is juggling the feelings in your head. Those feelings are going to be there for a while depending on you. To help sort out of the feelings I recommend therapy it does help religious or non religious your choice. That would be one of the first steps, if that's a option you don't prefer or can't afford do what people like me(who can't afford it) try and smile and overcome those feelings with generic ones that you see other people show. I don't recommend pills because i'm against them, (ex. what happens when you get off? Will you have the will power without them) So I say might as well experience all the emotions rather then bury them with pills. With as much support as possible, I hope for all the best.