My Childhood Slipped From My Hands

I was just 7 years old when it all began, My uncles had came from mexico they would be staying at our house while they worked. I was just 7 years old not knowing what he did that day was bad he came from behind me and started touching me, my mother never talked about this so i thought it was normal. I never talked about it i stayed quiet i did not think nothing bad about it as the years went by another uncle started doing the same thing to me again i thought this was normal sex was something i did not know. It was when i was finally 13 years old when my mother caught him kissing me, my mother screamed saying get in the room whats the matter with you i told him we were just playing thats how we play thats how we always play i started crying i thought i did something wrong, Never did she speak about this incident they took me to the doc i had lost my virginity who knows at what age, Still they never said anything about it i thought it was my fault, they took me to a councler and we talked where did he touch you what did he do i was ashamed thinking its my fault so i lied to them said he did nothing i say he bc they never found out about the other one. He went to jail for 5 years. The other one is free living his life aparantly i was not the only one he had molested my sisters were also molested, they were older i was confused. Years have passed and i still think about that day what i done wrong was it my fault i know it was not but still i feel my parents could of handeld it diffrent its when my life changed i would be afraid to let anyone close to me i still am even though i feel safe i dont
ConfusedGirl101xxx ConfusedGirl101xxx
18-21, F
1 Response May 5, 2012

I know your pain as I was molested from the time I was 5 till 17 by my whole family and was told I did it to my self by my mom and dad they were the only ones that didn't sexually molest me but they mentally abused me most of my life so if you need to talk I am here for you and will do all I can to try to help you in any way I can.