Tainted Innocence

I was molested when i was 6 years old by a guy who was about 16 (i won't get in to details though), its funny because i had blocked it out my mind completely but when i was about 14 that guy came to visit my family in NY and when i saw him i felt this intense dislike towards him and i just couldnt place why i had a sudden urge to kick his ***, and as i stared at him,  wham the memories where unlocked and i remembered the whole incident.

i had to walk out my house and leave until he was gone before i did something very stupid which would have included me grabbing a weapon and using it on him. well he ended up leaving and i went back home, i prayed to God to take away the rage i felt, and as time passed by i have learned to forgive and let it go, yeah if i see him i again i might want to punch him in the face, but at least i dont feel hate or like seriously hurting him anymore.

except recently i found out he molested my brother who was 7 at the time and it was worse then what he did to me, and i felt the rage start up again when i heard this i was so angry, you know its like one thing to mess with me but its another thing if you mess with my family, so again i prayed and prayed and prayed about it and it has started to calm down again thank God. im grateful that im a very strong person emotionally so i think i handled it pretty well, cause i know stuff like this can really screw people up, but i pray God gives yall the strength and comfort like he has given me, because molesters dont deserve to have that kind of control and affect on our lives.

inquisitiveme inquisitiveme
26-30, F
1 Response Mar 5, 2009

He definitely did, if I didnt know Him I think this would have ahd a bigger effect on my life today.