Child Prostitute Loses Self And Loved Ones
As a child, my mom gave me to her boyfriends ... to have sex with me... and I don't even remember it all... and I don't want to. I was a child prostitute, even though I don't know if she got paid for my services. I do know that it forever changed who I am. I have been molested and raped and abused. I think little of myself. And when I am down and out, I start thinking like that again. That my body is all that I am. That a nice piece of tail is all I will ever be. I went to therapy, and started getting help. Then my girlfriend broke up with me, and I was homeless.So, I turned what I knew: my body. I had a "friend" who was a guy (I am a lesbian), and I knew that if I slept with him, he would let me stay there. So I did. I did not enjoy it. I did it to survive. When I stopped, he raped me. But, because I lied, and said I was dating the guy, no one believes me. Not even the woman that I love. She thinks I did it because I wanted to. She calls me a liar. I can't help but think that had i not been prostituted as a child, I would've never gotten into that situation.