The Day I Lost My World...
Posted August 27th, 2010 at 3:40AM
My mom wanted me out of the house but my dad told her no. He wouldn't look at or talk to me after that. They called me names and the next day my dad told me to make an appointment with a doctor, so I did. I was 8 weeks along according to the OBGYN. She asked what I planned to do and I looked down and said I wasn't sure. She gave me a brochure for an abortion clinic, I took it but didn't read it. I told my dad that I was 8 weeks and he just went back to ignoring me. He took me to the clinic the next day and told the doctors I wanted an abortion right away. I could not believe what was happening and neither could my boyfriend.
All we could do was watch as my parents took everything from us...
Before I knew it 2 weeks later on August 15,2008, I lost my baby boy Enrique Vichet. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him. The same goes for his father, he grieves as much as I do, but tries to hide it to be strong for me. My parents hold it against me and tell me that it was my fault and that I had made a stupid choice...it hurts...not having my son. Ever since then, I've wanted to get pregnant and my boyfriend knew. I talked to him recently and we have come to a decision that we will have a baby by the time school is over so in about 8-9 months. By the time the baby's born I'll be 18 and in college & I'll be supported by my boyfriend along with the help of my best friend.
My parents don't know that we're planning this, nor did I have any idea what they did was illegal until it was too late. I've brushed up on my studies and I'm ready to do what I was meant to do...be a mom.
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They arnt very good parents in my view,they should of asked you what you wanted,what your boyfriend wanted and helped you with whatever choise you made.Yes,you made a wrong choise by having sex at such a young age and without a condom,but whats done is done and had no right telling you to get an abortion.
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Oh,and the OBGYN was wrong not explaining all your options to you,like you could of giving up the child for adoption rather than what was done.Its not your fault for getting an abortion,its your unsupportave parents and that OBGYN fault.
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I'm so sorry you had to go through with an abortion. Your parents should have been supportive. And I totally understand you wanting to get pregnant again and have a baby at a young age.
I would like to make a suggestion. Please consider getting counseling. Churches offer free counseling. Go, get some help. You probably have issues to work out since your parents are abusive. Getting away from an abusive environment is not enough. One needs counseling to learn how to handle life differently. Girl, I've had much counseling in my life (on and off) and it has taught me skills that I use in everyday life as well as in all my relationships from personal to business.
Again I'm sorry you lost your son, but I am happy you named him. That's the first step for you in healing. Go to the two below websites for healing, Hun. COMPLETE the 7 stages of grief so you don't hang onto resentment, sense of deep loss, guilt, etc.
Recover-from-grief. com/7-stages-of-grief. html
Rachelsvineyard. org -
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," Says the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future."
Message me if you want to talk. I'd love to hear from you.
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