I Was Raped!!After I was legally separated I went out on my first date with a man that I knew for a year. He was my tae-kwon-do Master and he was also my children's instructor. I was at his studio 5 days a week for just little over a year. When he asked me out I was so excited as I not only admired him but I was also attracted to him. On a friday night we met up after his studio was closed for the night. We went out for dinner and was having a fabulous time. After dinner he invited me back to his apartment. I felt totally safe in going there as I felt I knew him well after spending 100's of hours in his studio. Once we got to his apartment he offered me a glass of wine that I accepted. He drank some other home made beverage and when I asked him what it was he told me it was his own concotion he created to help replenish his health after teaching for hours. We both enjoyed our drinks and then he turned on his music as loud as possible. It was blasting to the point where I asked him to turn it down because it was hurting my ears. He told me that he liked it at that volume. He asked me to dance and I accepted. After one dance he started kissing me. All of a sudden he became very aggressive and his kissing was starting to hurt. I asked him to stop and he said no. I started to feel scared, I was 5'3", 120 pounds and he was 5'10" PURE muscle. He grabbed me and forced me into his bedroom. He shoved me onto his bed and told me to take off my clothes. I said no and that I wanted to go home. He said I would go home when he was done. He ripped my top off, every button went flying. I tried to get up, I was crying and he shoved me back down onto the bed. I kept saying no and it was like he was possessed and didn't even hear me. The music was so loud that no one could hear my cries of help. I remember every single minute of the rape. He had a clock on his bedside table and when he wasn't violently kissing me I stared at the clock watching every minute go by. On three occassions I managed to get myself off his bed and every time I did he grabbed me and threw me back down. I felt like a feather in comparison to his strength. He had three black belts, had represented his country in 2 world championships and went to the Olympics. I finally realized that I didn't have a hope in hell of getting away from him. I continued crying and telling him no and continued to tell him that he was hurting me. He told me to perform oral sex on him and I refused. The clock kept ticking away. He started raping me at 12:02am and continued until 3:14am. It felt like a lifetime. When he finally finished he told me to go and clean myself up. Trembling and crying I managed to get myself to the bathroom. My head was exploding and I was scared to death, I wasn't sure if he would kill me. I was whimpering like a puppy that had been beaten near to death. I turned the light on in the bathroom, looked in the mirror and screamed when I saw my face. He had bitten through my lower lip and the blood was everywhere. I didn't recognize the person in the mirror, she was someone I had never met or seen before. He had violently kissed me and bit me for over three long hours that my lips were swollen beyond what I could ever imagine. I quickly splashed water on my face, grabbed my clothes, coat and keys to my car. I left my purse and shoes behind. I ran for the door crying hysterically and didn't stop running until I got to my car. Somehow, and I don't know how I managed to drive myself home while in complete shock. He got in his car and followed me back to my home. I don't remember how I got home but I do remember getting back to my neighbourhood and realized that I was completely lost trying to find my house while constantly watching him in my rear view window not knowing if he was going to crash my car. When I finally found my house, he was already parked in my driveway. I didn't know what to do. I ran out of my car and ran to my neighbours house. I banged on their door for what felt like hours but in reality was about a minute. They didn't hear me. I stared at their door screaming for them to let me in. They heard nothing. Not wanting to be outside with him in my driveway I took my chances, ran to my home, unlocked the door, got inside, locked the door and ran to my phone. I called my husband and told him I was just raped and that Felix was at my door. He told me to hang up and go to the couch and not open the door for anything. He told me he was calling the police and coming right over. He had to wake up our two young sons and get them in his car so he could get to me. I don't know what I did during that time, but my phone kept ringing and it was Felix calling from his cell phone. I finally heard the police sirens and heard his car screetching out of the driveway. The police got to my home before my husband and kids did. I was pretrified to open the door to the police so I didn't. When my husband got to the house he came running in with my 2 young sons and the police came in right behind him. My sons started crying as soon as they saw me. I kept telling them that I was ok. My husband took the boys up to their rooms was they calmed down a bit. While he quietly chatted with them to calm them down I had to tell the police every perverse detail of the rape. After what felt like hours they took me to the hospital to go through the rape kit. The male doctor kept talking to me but I don't remember anything he said. All I remember was crying quietly and being completely despondent. After the rape kit was done they gave me all the pills to take including the morning after pill. I told them I wouldn't be able to keep them down. They told me to do my best. I threw them up minutes after I swallowed them. After the rape kit was done and my clothes were taken from me they asked me if I wanted to press charges. I said no initially and about three minutes later I said yes. I'll complete this nightmare later, right now I feel drained.
AlwaysRemembers 41-45, F 41 Responses 17 Mar 31, 2007