You Asked For This.Everyday i'm haunted by that night. I thought he loved me, I though he meant he would never hurt me. But, sometimes we're all maid out to be a fool. It seemed like any other day, it was my 15th birthday. My ex and I went to a fire to spend my birthday with our friends. I knew something was wrong when he wouldnt let go of me.I thought he wanted to just spend time with me, but I was wrong. We all went in the tent for bed. Me and him layed together. I felt him coming on to me. "Stop" that's what I said. But its like he never hear me. I could feel him try to take my clothes off. I tried to fight back, but he just taped my mouth and held me down. At that point, I knew this wasn't love. It was rape. I felt hopeless. Like I was standing in the middle of a crowded room, screaming and no one bothered to look up. "You deserve this" those words haunt me for ever. I had to go on, pretending it never happened. Being raped, was haunting. Ever night, im scared to fall asleep. Scared hell come back. That guy lives only a block away. I cant even share a bed with anyone else because i'm scared it'll happy all over again. No one knows. Not my family, no one. Im not recognized as a *****. A ****. A walking disease because I "had sex" at 15. No one knows the pain this causes me. I'm now 17 and it still hurts just as worse. The nightmares still exist. Happy 15th birthday, you asked for it.
realwithmeex 16-17, F 5 Responses 4 Aug 30, 2012