Will I Always Be Like This?
It was almost 10 years ago, it was a weekend with the bestfriend in 3rd grade. who could have known someone so close to you could hurt you in so many ways. needless to say i woke up with no pants on nor did my friend and all i remember seeing was her older brother down in between my legs saying it will be ok just go back to sleep. so i did, didint think anything of it so i did. the next night he did it again but he did have pants on and said it might hurt but it be ok, just dont tell anyone and i did what he said. but my bff woke up and yelled and her mom came in and called the cops on him and he went to jail because she did something about when i couldnt. it had took me tell i was in the 8th grade before i could tell anyone. to this day i cant even lay next to my boyfriend because i have so bad flashbacks to those night and ive been like this since then. i havent talked to anyone about it because i hate it so much, i feel like i could have stoped it but i didnt. i just wish something could help me get over it and stop having these flashbacks so often