I Need Help.
I think i was around 7 when this all started, before this, i was a fun, loving, out going little girl, i had tons of friends and i always had a smile on my face. But i can't remember how or why this all happened, or how i even thought it was okay. my older sister used to make me do stuff to her, im so ashamed. I cant remember details of it happening, actually i cant remember much of my childhood. I remember it all stopped when i was around 10? I hate thinking of my childhood, i hate seeing kids. i hate myself. everytime i see her, i just want to tell her how much i hate her. She has a family and 3 kids now, shes moved on with her life like nothing ever happened. This whole experience has made my life a living hell. Since it was a female and my sister who did this, i feel like it was all my fault, that i am a worthless person, that im disgusting. that with this past, that i cant be the girl that i was meant to grow up to be. I have no idea how to move on with my life.