I am a wife and a mother to 5 great kids. To avoid daycare costs my husband worked days for a distribution company and I worked nights at a gas station about 15 minutes from home. There was many people to come in to my work.. some said hello and some just passed through.. There was a man and his family who came in about everyday, they had 4 children and seemed to be a all american family. I also knew his cousin who was a customer also.. She was nice and i seemed to kinda make friends with her. We had talked about getting our nails done or going to lunch sometime.
My husband and i were having problems, Due to working all kinds of crazy hours the both of us had grown apart. We hardly saw eachother. We had a bit of a out and he tooks the kids to his brothers thats about 2 hours away.
I had went to work like i always did and thee girl who i had made friends with had came in. She could see that i was sad and something was going on. I told her it was my husband and I Having problems. I told her to call me and she said when do you get off work, Maybe i could stop by and say hi to you! I said at 10:00. And she left. I knew she had to call first biengs that she didnt even know where i live. I worked through out the day and everything was pretty much the same as it usaully was.
I got off work about 10:05pm and went to my car and drove home. When i got there i went in locked the door and went for the phone to call my husband and let him know i was home and wanted him to come back so we could talk. Then someone knocked on the door. I stupidly answered it. It was him. He was standing there with a blank look on his face. I kinda got goose bumps and didnt understand the reson he was at my house. I said wheres your cousin. He replied that she would be here in a few minutes. I said she doesnt know where i live and HOW DO YOU KNOW WHERE I LIVE?? he said that he had to work by my house one time and saw my car in the driveway. He came in and sat on the couch. I left the front door opeon and sat on the opposite couch. He was talking about applying for a new job that had better pay and i kept looking at the front door.. Some how i got the feeling that no one else was coming. I said well i am really tired and need to go to bed. He said ok.. Got off the couch and walked to the door. Then he turned around and with his arm behind him he closed the door. I said Serously i need to go to bed. Tell your cousin to come by tomorow at my work. He walked closer to me and appeared to be trying to give me a hug. I backed up and said you need to leave. He said I am I am...!! He didn't leave though. He grabbed my arm and was twisting it so hard i was starting to cry. I yelled and screamed at him to scare him off.. He only grabbed me harder... Then I tryed to go grab the phone that was in between my livingrom anf kitchen. He pushed the phone over off the counter. I tryed to get to the front door, He chased me to the door and grabbed me at my waist and threw me on the couch. I was struggling so hard but he wasnt letting me go. He was on top of me. I was on my back. He was trying to kiss me and was talking but i was screaming and couldnt hear what he was saying.
IT seemed like a lifetime... I pushed and elbowed him.. i even bit him.. Nothing was working to get him off me.. He then ripped my pants and turned me over.. I elbowed him in his face... So he punched me over and over again. I was so muchin shock that it didnt really hurt. He hit me on the back of my head and i thaught i felt like i was going to pass out.. I tryed to just live.. The more i struggled the more he assaulted me. He then raped me from behind.. I just cryed and cryed. I thaught he was going to kill me. FINALLY he stopped..i was laying face first on the couch.. He pushed me on the floor and he stomped really hard on my back... I sat up and was crying aloud. I had blood coming from my private area and was in pain. All i could think of was trying to get help. But he is still standing in my livingroom. I was so scared i couldnt talk aymore.. Just crying outloud. he was laughing .. staring right threw me and laughing like a monster..
He said NOTHING.. he walked outside and left the door opeon. I waited a second to make sure he was really gone and moved towards the door to close it.. I closed the door and locked it... I went to the back door and made sure it was locked.. I went to the bathroom .. I had blood running down my legs and blood coming from my nose. I got a towel and walked back to the livingroom to get the phone... I picked it up but couldnt call anyone.. I didnt know what to say.. what to do.. i sat all night in the doorway of my livingroom and my bedroom with the phone....
Thee only thing i would have done different if i had the chance would be to use that phone and get help...
We moved just a couple days later... TO get out of that house where this all happened.. and have since moved a few times to try and forget what happened.. I have now in 2007 relized that i will NEVER forget!!
I live this nightmare over and over again... My husband and i have sorted through our issues and are slowely working on them.. But this nightmare has caused so much pain, grief, nightmares and has taken possestion of my soul... My bieng... I am not the same nor do i see myself EVER bieng the way i was...