He Was 10 - I Was 9

What. The. F uck. No, a human body doesn't work that way. No matter what he would have gotten off scotfree (he is ten, not even old enough for juvenile detention). Most kids don't even understand the functions of sex at ten years old, and definitely not boys, as they start puberty at a much older age than girls. It seems highly implausible for a boy at an age where he could not get a proper erection to rape anybody. If this had been a rare exception to all the factors I mentioned, then I wish you the best of luck. It must have been horrible to remember something that happened when you are nine all the way till your forties. Your story is a very rare one, and many of the factors don't logically add up. I am surprised no one else on the site had noticed. Please, fellow readers, don't be too quick to offer you sympathy, try to instead see a solution or a way to help other than just a few kind words. Hopefully we can rid this site of all those not seeking consolation but instead attention garnered through immoral means.

If you tell, you will feel better. But I know from experience that scars can run deep, and may never heal. If you read my story, you will completely understand.

Thank you all for your words of wisdom & comfort. I am better than I was, but I will admit to it still having an effect on how I live & even how I feel about & see myself. When I moved away from Ontario (where I grew up), I found it easier to deal with as he is no longer within my eyesight. He lived near me all my life, at one point I honestly believed that he was stalking me. I don't know if he was or not, but it was enough to give me night terrors for years.

Again, thank you all for your comfort & understanding.



FYI:: I've been in "therapy" off & on since I was 16. I have come to believe that some experiences just mark us permanently & all we can do is learn to live with them. : (

Could you not tell anyone - i guess that easy to say as an adult but when you are a child you think that it your fault - and its not - you think maybe you'll get into trouble. Oh its so hard to tell children to be open and talk about these things.

u poor girl.it wasn't right.

Hopefully time will heal the hurt caused to you, It is the scars unfortunately that will always remain. They say all things happen for a reason but there is no rhyme or reason

to abuse another fellow human being.