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When It Happened..

I have always been a happy go-lucky kind of girl on the outside. I always have a smile on my face and do my best to make everyone around me happy. Very few people know how i truely feel everyday- and even fewer people know the main reason why.

When i was young i loved playing with my brothers (my dads kids). Just like any little girl would. we played house, doctor, lots of childhood games. My dad worked on cars for a living and my brothers liked to help, we had many run-down cars in our backyard, so one of my favorite past times was going out back and playing in the cars, pretending we were driving and such. I loved my brothers.

One day when i was eight years old, my thirteen year old brother and i were playing pretend in one of the cars. He was the husband, i was the wife. i thought nothing of it at first, we were just playing pretend. Its when my brother suggested we do everything that adults do that i started getting worried.
Eventually one thing led to another, and i was raped by my brother. i was hurt both physically and mentally, but i told no one untill years later.

When i was 15 years old my ex-boyfriend and i were talking, he knew that i was suffering from depression, and he mentioned that sometimes people block things out from the past, but still suffer from them subconciously.

After thinking for a while, i decided to tell him what had happened. Eventually i told my mother, but i dont think she believed me. She told me not to tell my father because she wasnt sure how he would react.

I've never reported him to the police, nothing like that, but i dont see him anymore. and when i rarely do, i dont talk to him and stay as far away from him as possible.
xoxSierra xoxSierra 16-18, F 21 Responses Dec 9, 2007

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I've read everyone of these stories and I keep thinking my brothers will rape me I have three older brothers 15,18,21 and I'm only 11 my parents are usually out of town I'm kind of scared

If you don't trust them that is scary. That is your family and they should have your back. The age difference makes it very easy for them to overpower you anytime they want. Your arms could be held behind your back, your clothes removed and they could easily punch you in your belly over and over. Has any of your brothers ever punched you in your belly yet? You need to be scared of that happening. Has any of them tried to or actually touched you between your legs? I would also be careful if they suggest they want to tie you up. If your naked and your arms are tied above your head, there is nothing stopping them from punching you in your belly, breasts or crotch. They could also easily finger rape you. If they ever tie you spread eagle and your naked, I'd be scared. Fists could slam into your exposed belly, boobs and pubic bone. Rape then WILL happen. If they act the way you suggest then I'd bet you've already been punched in your belly numerous times and probably tied up. All I can suggest is watch your back if you don't trust them. I'm lucky, my brother has my back always.

My dad's a mechanic, and I was raped by my brother when he was 13, too. Small world, unfortunately. :(

You should definitely tell someone you trust.

>Considering reporting someone to the police for something he did when he was 13 years old...<br />
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You have some serious mental problems and it doesnt appear to me that your brother is the cause of it.

jerk!!!!!!!!!!!!

Brothers always seem to be the case in this. I would highly recommend finding some sort of evidence to show your guardians or whoever can help you in this case. It's always sad to hear stories such as this one.<br />
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You have my support!

that's why getting close to boys are bad especially brothers stay away from them

your moms an idiot

My sister told me to not tell to.

ooh im so sorry after readind this.... im against rape but by brother... tat really hurts....wish ALMIGHTY gives u strength to over come n u lead a wonderful n cheerful life without depression...GOD bless u!

My dear sister, i am very sad to hear that r story. May the creator of the worlds give u patience and peace in ur life.<br />
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This is why we believe in the day of judgement, as in the Qurans translation it is mentioned "And whoever does an atom's weight of evil will see it." & "So whoever does an atom's weight of good will see it,". The creator of the universe will ask him, and punish him for his wrong doing.<br />
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Therefore, we have this concept of female covering themself in Islam, this guards there modesty, and keep them away from evil eyes and sex hungry guys (cuz of the western messed up media and wrong role models).<br />
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The only way to understand the purpose of life, it to read the final testament which is called the Quran, to believe in the One Almighty, and follow his book to live a clean & peaceful life. And it has been preserved by the creator himself, it talks about how to lead the complete life, and attain true peace.

what kind of mother is she??? tell your father!!

what kind of mother is she??? tell your father!!

That is really sick and you should definitely tell! The past still hurts, even though it's over.

Get it all out. Secrets hurt

thats horrible!!! y wud he do that.

(Pguist )wow sweety I too was taken advantage of as a child by my oldest brother that i adored .Heres how i cope with this today. I try to be a wonderful person to everyone too always helpful and caring .Bubbly and always a jokester on the outside but inside i was hurt. I see my brother for holidays and its ruff i just wanna ask him why he did that to me .maybe even a sorry would be good ...But it doesnt define me what he did to me ya know . It made me not want to be a girl as welland i ate my tears Now i look at him (50)and he is so sad he drinks like a fish and hasnt had much good in his life at all ..very insecure ect. So karma is something else.I know the things he has done eats him up on the inside. I dont wish harm or ill will to him Because its not God like . A big hug for you hun.

i truly honstly know how u feel, i was raped by my brother when i was 10. i was asleep nd he came and raped me. i could not believe tha my own brother could do somthing lke that. it made me hate the fact that i was a girl. i was depressed for apbut 3 years and still now i still wish i wasnt a girl. i am only 13 now. i always say to myself why do men get immunity from such things? men barely get raped. even if they do, they dont feel as bad and it doesnt hurt as much. i mean think about it. men dont get periods that i have heard hurt badly. men dont hold a child maybe more in thier stomach for 9 freakn months! and ontop of all that, women do the exact same thing as men when they work hard, when they take care of everyone. i just hate men sooo much. inknow 4 a facet that i will never forgive my brother.

i truly honstly know how u feel, i was raped by my brother when i was 10. i was asleep nd he came and raped me. i could not believe tha my own brother could do somthing lke that. it made me hate the fact that i was a girl. i was depressed for apbut 3 years and still now i still wish i wasnt a girl. i am only 13 now. i always say to myself why do men get immunity from such things? men barely get raped. even if they do, they dont feel as bad and it doesnt hurt as much. i mean think about it. men dont get periods that i have heard hurt badly. men dont hold a child maybe more in thier stomach for 9 freakn months! and ontop of all that, women do the exact same thing as men when they work hard, when they take care of everyone. i just hate men sooo much. inknow 4 a facet that i will never forgive my brother.

My dear sister, i am very sad to hear that r story. May the creator of the worlds give u patience and peace in ur life.

This is why we believe in the day of judgement, as in the Qurans translation it is mentioned "And whoever does an atom's weight of evil will see it." &amp; "So whoever does an atom's weight of good will see it,". The creator of the universe will ask him, and punish him for his wrong doing.

Therefore, we have this concept of female covering themself in Islam, this guards there modesty, and keep them away from evil eyes and sex hungry guys (cuz of the western messed up media and wrong role models).

The only way to understand the purpose of life, it to read the final testament which is called the Quran, to believe in the One Almighty, and follow his book to live a clean &amp; peaceful life. And it has been preserved by the creator himself, it talks about how to lead the complete life, and attain true peace.

that's exactly what my mom said to me and my sis

im sorry my myspace or facebook is veronica_aidamil14@yahoo.com and my yahoo is veronica_aidamil@yahoo.com. we could be great friends.

JESUS! It kills me that moms are telling their girls "don't tell"! You need to confront your brother, either through letter or in person. You need to tell him what this did to you and then you need to confront your mother. Tell her what it did to you to keep that secret and how it felt to know that she didn't protect you and that she wouldn't help you. Once you've gotten it out in the open, allow yourself time to heal and move forward in your life. It's easy to hang on to the hurt and anger a nd to allow it to dictate our lives. The step that takes courage and is much harder is the letting it go. Peace to you!

get help before it eats u alive and u end up like me

My dear sister, i am very sad to hear that u have also been thru worst. May the creator of the worlds give u patience and peace in ur life.

This is why we believe in the day of judgement, as in the Qurans translation it is mentioned "And whoever does an atom's weight of evil will see it." &amp; "So whoever does an atom's weight of good will see it,". The creator of the universe will ask him, and punish him for his wrong doing.

Therefore, we have this concept of female covering themself in Islam, this guards there modesty, and keep them away from evil eyes and sex hungry guys (cuz of the western messed up media and wrong role models).

The only way to understand the purpose of life, it to read the final testament which is called the Quran, to believe in the One Almighty, and follow his book to live a clean &amp; peaceful life. And it has been preserved by the creator himself, it talks about how to lead the complete life, and attain true peace.

ameen