Let Them Starve

I am the same author who wrote "My Deep Dark Secret" dated 6 December 2012.

Proceeding from the story, I did not and don't think will ever have the intention to divulge my secret to my parents. What is weird though is when I think about saying it, what comes to mind is my mother. I know she will be devastated. She has tried her best to shield us from the world. She would even chaperone us everywhere. But all that came after the incident. Sometimes, I want to tell her that all the precautions has been too late but I can't be that cruel. It has nothing to do with her.

Decades after the incident, I now know what happened to the two cousins. The one who actually touched me had married a rich girl and appears to live off from the assets of his spouse. The other, the one who only laughed as his brother made contact with me, is living in poverty. He has a family but has no job. He tries to get money from his relatives as much as he can.

One of the relatives he gets money from, I have just learned, is my mother. She takes pity on them and occasionally gives them money when she can.

My mother was just telling me about their predicament and I tensed. I had to cross my arms because my left hand turned into a trembling fist. I wanted to tell her to stop sending him money. But I said nothing. What will I tell her to justify not sending them any money.

I don't know if I am just holding on to a grudge that should have been buried a long time ago but some part of me wants them to just starve. How can I be cruel? How can I bury the hatchet? I thought I've moved on.
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4 Responses Jan 22, 2013

The best revenge is living well. Let them suffer for what they have done. Karma's a *****.

I can think of a few places that that hatchet can be buried in but it isn't worth it for you to spend the rest of your life in prison. But no, this isn't "grudge" material! Grudges are when some one steals your BF or GF. Grudges are for when someone takes credit for YOUR hard work...You were victimized...in the worst way possible. You have the right to be angry and have any other feelings that are appropriate to the situation. You also have the responsibility to yourself and your emotional health to find a therapist and work thru what happened to you.

You didn't deserve what happened to you, none of us do. Rape happens to so many women, but yet all stories are so different. You need to tell your mother. This man, this rapist is living of your mother! Never forget that he destroyed your life, you don't deserve to be worrying about him, your mother shouldn't be either. You need to be a strong happy woman, but never forget what they did to you. Some say to forgive and forget, I say to let them rot. Tell your mother, tell the police, tell the teacher, tell the damn world if you have too! Think about this, while you have been living your life afraid of them both, he (probably) has been raping other women. Once a rapist, always a rapist.

Tell your mom. She deserves to know who is using her money.

Just be honest with yourself, and go from there.