Me And DaddyI was really young when it all started, I was probably around 3 or 4 when my dad started taking long baths with me. He was loving and caring always. He used to touch me softly, always telling me how much he loved me. I really felt loved and protected. My dad taught me about sexual stuff, recorded me touching myself like he told me to, he always recorded our "playing". I wonder if my videos are over the net. I try to look for it sometimes, but never found anything.
When I was around 8 my dad had complete sex with me for the first time. From that time onwards, things progressed rapidly. It wasnt fun and loving anymore. Most of the time I felt abused and lonely. I hated when he was on top of me and I hated when he left me alone drowning in guilt, disgust and shame after he had finished his business.
Those long baths were not so frequent anymore, instead, my dad would visit in my bedroom randomly. Each time I felt more distant from my dad, but I still loved him very much. My dad was a very charming man, he would seduce me easily everytime. But as I was growing older, he was becoming more rough to me, always recording everything..
My mom was suspicious but not brave enough to face it. I had never the courage to tell anyone.