I Was Raped By My Ex-boyfriend And His Friends
I had a boyfriend, we had an on and off relationship. We were broken up when he raped me. We had been broken up for a week then I started dating a new guy. My ex asked me to come over to his house after one date. He said he just wanted to hang out. Now, I should probably mention the reason we broke up. It was because he had a meth problem. I didn't wanna be around that anymore so I broke up with him. Well I don't know how it happened but I know it happened, and I know he invited some of his friends over to watch. I also think I was drunk or drugged or something. Because I asked him to stop, and when they (his friends)held me down I wanted to try and get up, but I was too tired and they were stronger than me. The whole time him and his friends were joking and laughing at me. They said things like "She could be thinner, or have bigger boobs" The whole time him and his friends were just playing around and taking turns. They acted like it was some kind of game. But it wasn't a game. It hurt. It was my first time. And I didn't tell anyone.I didn't even tell anyone when I got pregnant. I just told them I didn't know how it happened or who the dad was. I don't talk about it. I can't believe i'm saying this. But after the rape, I started having panic attacks and stopped dating. All I did was hang out with my sister and Best friend, and take care of the baby. It's getting better but I still have the nightmares, and I still remember him everyday when I look at my son. But don't get me wrong I love my son, I really do. He is the only thing that kept me from killing myself after the rape.