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I Was Raped By My Ex-boyfriend And His Friends

I had a boyfriend, we had an on and off relationship. We were broken up when he raped me. We had been broken up for a week then I started dating a new guy. My ex asked me to come over to his house after one date. He said he just wanted to hang out. Now, I should probably mention the reason we broke up. It was because he had a meth problem. I didn't wanna be around that anymore so I broke up with him. Well I don't know how it happened but I know it happened, and I know he invited some of his friends over to watch. I also think I was drunk or drugged or something. Because I asked him to stop, and when they (his friends)held me down I wanted to try and get up, but I was too tired and they were stronger than me. The whole time him and his friends were joking and laughing at me. They said things like "She could be thinner, or have bigger boobs" The whole time him and his friends were just playing around and taking turns. They acted like it was some kind of game. But it wasn't a game. It hurt. It was my first time. And I didn't tell anyone.I didn't even tell anyone when I got pregnant. I just told them I didn't know how it happened or who the dad was. I don't talk about it. I can't believe i'm saying this. But after the rape, I started having panic attacks and stopped dating. All I did was hang out with my sister and Best friend, and take care of the baby. It's getting better but I still have the nightmares, and I still remember him everyday when I look at my son. But don't get me wrong I love my son, I really do. He is the only thing that kept me from killing myself after the rape.
redflower123 redflower123 16-17, F 4 Responses Jul 14, 2010

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girl im sorry for wat happened to u. thank god u didnt took that anger with the baby or something @ ther cause most girls do. that baby is miracle even though u were a victim. thats not their problem. im proud of u but im here for u wenever u wanna talk but i know how it feels to be hopeless. i been tru that before but thank god i never got raped. i guess i was being molested. im here for u my myspace and facebook is and my yahoo is

Wow...I can't believe that would happen...You should report him and i know it's scary it took me almost 6 years to tell anyone and i felt so free... I'm just saying because what if it happens to another person?i know its none of my business but it doesnt seem right to let him get away with it more than one time. :OYou are such a strong person

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Wow. I applaud you for keeping your baby. <br />
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You will be surprized how many women have been raped and end up pregnant as a result. Keeping a baby that has been concieved throgh such a violation is........ well it's amazing. You are courageous and stong and thanks for sharing something so horrendous.<br />
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