8 Males And A 13yr Old Virgina lil background b4 i start my details on the horrendous rape destroying a 13 yr olds virginity...my parents were drug dealers and dopers since i was at least 12 yrs...my father has and still is an alcoholic, has been for my whole life. I am the oldest of 6 grls, due to my parents habits i have been cooking on the stove since i was 6yrs old and caring for my sisters since that long...ive heard stories from family members and friends that i started maturnal duties b4 that...i have taught my sisters to tie there shoes, helped wit ABC's, got them ready for school, fed them, etc since i was very young. my parents drug habits went on until i was about 15 and they had newborn twins(included in the 6 sisters) which i fed bottles to b4 going to school...anyway, obviously ive had alot of responsibilities beyond my age when i was young which has an effect on my story...
I was a troubled youth who hated being home; though i didnt know, at the time, of my parents drug use and selling I knew something was wrong in my household. I didnt understand why i was always so angry. we had a 3 story house, 5 bedrooms, 4 bathrooms, a hottub, etc. Not a typical crackheads house; our grandparents were rich and helped with bills. They lived out of town so they didnt see how little food we had in the house; we made due with what we had though. I constantly ran away, for weeks at a time, hung out with gang members, started smoking pot when i was 13, drinking when i was 12, and smoking cigeretts when i was 11...the gang members i hung out with all the time were at a local hangout which was a bar that had a pool table and video games. Minors were aloud in until 5 or 6 pm. On this occasion i had ran away and had no where to go and they offered me and my friend(who ran away with me) a place to stay. their ages ranged from 12 to 26, being a very young and nieve child i accepted their invitation; i had been "friends" with these guys for at least 6mnths and genuinly thought they were my friends.
As the night persisted on my friend and i met them at the apartment complex and started drinkin beer and smoking pot with them. When my friend and i were intoxicated enough the idea of us having sex wit all those guys was brought up by a female who i didnt know. my friend and i refused. at first i thought it was a joke and told them hell no but one of the bigger more muscular guys said we were gonna do it or we were gonna get thrown out of the window (we were 3 stories off the ground mind u) i rolled my eyes and said "ya right"...He picked me up, stuck me out the window and let my legs dangle, if we would have let go i would have fell. one of the guys pulled me into the other room where a bed lye on the floor and tried to smooth talk me. out of all the guys i had talked to him the most at the hangout spot and really thought we wer friends. I cried and begged him to make them not go through with this. I said "im a virgin, please dont" he told me calmly that he couldnt stop them. i had no choice and felt defeated; sobbing, i sat on the bed. He kissed me and told me if i liked him to jus let him do it. It hurt so bad!! He was gentle as he could be but it was so painful...i cried the whole time. then the next guy came in. then the next. i hurt so bad...one of the guys had the odasity to call me a ***** and a ****. he was rough and i was crying, he was talkiing dirty and all i could say was "im not a ****" as he was driving himself into me. I was so ashamed...i hurt to much to continu with one of them and he made me try and give him a blow job...i didnt want to and had no experience...it was horrifying and finally i refused and stopped. when everything was said and done and i got dressed i rejoined everyone in the living room and sat down quietly. I couldnt go home, i was a runaway(i thought at the time), they wont do it again i told myself. The girl who initiated everything asked me how it felt to be a women. i told her i didnt know and she asked me if i needed round two and i said hell no...so i lyed and said not bad...what do u tell someone who basically asking you how it was to lose my virginity to 8 guys? i was soo scared, hurt, embarrased, ashamed, amoungst other feelings. Here i am 12 yrs later with children of my own, one boy and one girl, and i have issues but i survived...i never turned them in because the pple i told said it was my fault and i was afraid theyd come after me. I am a very strong, resilient, aggressive women and God help anyone who dares lay a finger on my children
cutebishortie 26-30, F 18 Responses 2 Dec 18, 2010