Daddy's Little Girl
When I was 4 years old my mom married my stepdad and we moved to japan because he was in the military . Life was great at first because my dad had been out of the picture and now I had a daddy of my own who loved me. It sucks to say this but I really loved him like any little girl loves her daddy. When my mom went to the hospital I had to stay home and thats when the abuse startef. He wouldn't let me go to the bathroom and then would spank me when I wet myself. Afterwards he would always say he loved me and I was his little girl. After my sister was born we moved on base and it got worse.I lived in japan for 5 years and during those 5 years my stepdad raped me and molested me. He beat me and emotionally hurt me. I was too young to understand that this was wrong and loved him unconditionally because thats what daddies were supposed to do. This abuse continued untill the incident that changed everything. I had broken my foot and was in a cast and my stepdad.was supposed to help me down the stairs and I remember falling down the stairs after he had pushed me. He told everyone I tripped but after that incident he was removed from my home . What I found out later was they had been watching him since the first time I had come in with vaginal bleeding after my stepdad had given me a bath. When he left I was great broken and it took my real dad coming back into my life to show me what real love is. I use to say that I hate him but I pity him because he.will never have true love and know true happiness because he was never happy with his self. I was molested in 6th grade and twice in college my sophomore year. I am 20 years old and could be angry but I have chosen to use my experience to help others like me. I am going to be a social worker and I am going to make a difference. I wish this had never happened to me but it did and I am not a rape victim I am a survivor and I am not letting my attackers hold me back any longer.