I Was When I Was Very Young

Me was first raped by my foster dad at the age of 3 and me didn't want to be a boy anymore. Me was potty train at 4, me started stealing nappies of clothes line at the age of 5, me often steal a 6 for myself and most of the time the pants wear for girls and me started stealing dress and girls clothes because it easy for me to change and my pants didn't fit over it. me think wear nappies 24/7 and do all baby activates because of it. I want to give this world and be a real baby I always wanted but I want it all. Me don't care who see me or my clothes. Me been this way since I can remember. me wear pepe tube 24/7 now because me hate pepe. I don't know anymore.
It just the person who rape me when I was young die and I can't find out if he is sorry. But I don't care any more I think I just have to accept it. I'm not going to find out. I just fleet like saying thanks by pulling down my pants and so him my pink plastic panties and 9 layer of clothes nappies and to see what he would say.
I just been told that the person who did the rude things to me has just past away. but I don't feel any thing 4 them.
NO justice. Should I feel something for them?
babozjamie babozjamie
41-45, T
6 Responses Apr 21, 2011

like to talk more with you.i think we have a bit in common

Age 3? - not a chance. The bastard should have been hung, drawn and quartered. Go find his grave and **** on it.

hi babys nice story. so u got bum rapet in u baby pants or did he make u put them on ferst ? ). x

No me was still in them

so. he pulld t leg hole open to rape u or did he jest ript them down ?

he pull them off me

@ Babozjamie<br />
I'm so sorry someone hurt you. I hope you can get the help you need, to deal with being an adult now.<br />
I've heard that Hitler had similar issues.<br />
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@ Navigator4U<br />
I remeber some things that happened when I was around 3 - 4 years old.<br />
I did block a lot of it out.....then it came flooding back, what my molester did too me.<br />
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I never forgot that he molested me, I just forgot 'parts' of what he (and his wife did).<br />
I remembered what he did; when I was thinking back to another trauma I was going through (reconstructive plastic surgery).<br />
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I hate them!

are you still 4 years old? Your story was written like a child did it. I don't really believe your story. I really don't think a 3 year old would even know or remember anything like that. I do believe you need some help though. I would suggest to you that you find a counselor to speak with and figure out what is going on inside your head and get help with ways to deal with it. I'm not meaning that in an ugly way. You truly need some help.

Yes me am still a 4 year old, me wear nappies 24/7 and never give them up. As you said it hard to believe ask any other that happen to and is an like me, me need one thing to trigger it. You try to figue out why me want to be a girl and wear nappies make me fell safe, It did happen all of it. but me live it and me only put it on here to vent some angry.

so sorry